Friday, December 28, 2007

LIFE

Ain’t Life great! Think about it. It’s the only thing in the whole wide world that gives you 2nd chance in your life. Not even your girlfriend/boyfriend does it without thinking twice. Life’s has its means and ways to let you in on the little secrets of this planet, and you’ll get to know a little more of yourself everyday. It’s self-discovery everyday! It’s your own Truman Show. :p Ya ya…is it making sense to you?! Kekeke…I’m smart right… :p so after all, I’m not a himbo. Hahahha…

We don’t have to complicate matters by twisting and turning the same ol’ issue/problem day in day out. Draw out the “main” point, decide whether it’s worth your time to make/break and get on with it. You’ll suddenly feel time is more flexible and you can do more things!! Life’s simple, don’t make a fuss out of it. LOVE LIFE!! LOVE ME!! (me represents yourself, but I don’t mind more people loving me. Kekeke…)

This thought just came into my mind and I thought I just share with you guys. Ehhh…only a handful who bothers to read my uninteresting blog, i.e. Jo, Yve & HS. :) I’m not that popular, you know :( Anyway, keep that in mind and it might make your Life simpler, easier and happier. Perk up!! Life’s GREAT, go out and have fun!!

p.s. see why I put a capital “L” in Life. It’s real important and you should love it more than anything. Love thy neighbours, friends, strangers and family. Keep it real folks ; )

Thursday, December 27, 2007

National Treasure...Brings out the patriotism in me..

Had a great party on the Eve of X’mas. Partied till 4am and hit the sack. It was really really fun and everyone was enjoying themselves. Everyone sang to his or her hearts content, except HS…poor girl. She was sick and hope she recovered fast. :)

This year, I was in the mood of giving (as the Chinese like to say, “too much money, don’t know where to spend” mood) and bought everyone I love and born with, a prezzie. Including my couz! I reckon it’s my 1st time. Received lotsa this year and I truly adore all these people. People who love me all year round and since I was born. I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO!!!! Muuuaaaccckkkk!!

Went to watch National Treasure yesterday. It didn’t fail me. The story was intriguing and as expected, kept me at the edge of the seat, literally. I guess there’s a part 3. Can’t wait for the next installment!!! The script writers are damn bloody GOOD!! Go watch it if you still not yet done it. I guaranteed you wouldn’t regret it. ; )

Actually this posting was due yesterday, but my sis's lappie went down, so my dad gotta use the connection to repair. Anyway, I'm just glad I FINALLY gotta post it..Aaaaarrrrggghhh...kekeeke.. :p

NYE here I come!!!

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Mad X'mas Shopping!! & I dreamt of my sista...kekekek

Actually this is an overdue posting. Kekekek…writing this JUST for Yve. ‘coz I dreamt about her 2 nights back and it’s due to the fact that she called me in the day. Weird rite? Hahahah…anyway it really nice to dream of my baby sista and how I wish it’s real. ; ) oh ya, and she’s really hot now!!! Just chat with her through MSN and you can see her display picture is totally pro-looking and HOT!!! But she just played it down and be humble. Silly girl. :p so if any guys wanna chat her up, contact her through me!!! You wouldn’t regret it. ; )

My 1st day of work back from my trip is really slack. Though piled up high with papers and emails, I selectively chose those that require my attention and left the rest till Mon. I’m too distracted with the season to be jolly and shopping!! Hahahah…went shopping again yesterday, but it’s for my couz. Only bought CDs for myself. My back’s hurting and have to cut short my trip loh. So sad man. Still have Suntec, Marina Sq, Bugis Street to conquer!! Hmmm…looks like I can only go after X’mas. Post X’mas SALE!!! Hahahaha…I’m going crazy now..stupid sales everywhere!! Aaarrrggghhh…..kekeekek :p

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Back from Shanghai!

I’m back from Shanghai!! It’s pretty chilly over there…It’s my maiden voyage over there, so a bit sua ku. Kekeke…1st day was about 5 deg, 2nd was hovering 5-10 and today is the hottest at 15 deg, and you only need a thermal wear and a normal jacket will do. Lounging the thick coat is bloody heavy. Anyway that’s not the point.

Had a great time seeing the culture and the people. Friendly and polite. And my supplier and his employees are sweethearts. They treat you like king and always have your best interest in mind. Was somehow humbled by the experience and would look forward to going there to meeting them and knowing them on a deeper level. Nice people :)

Monday, December 10, 2007

Hopping Mad!!

BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m bloody pissed with the weather, man…I didn’t take leave just to stay home!! I need to do my shopping!! Aaaarrrggghhhh!!! The whole day is raining non-stop. Don’t know when will stop. The shitty weather starts since the turn of the month. Unbelievable!! Nothing to say liao. Too mad to write. :<

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Life: Leaders or Supporting Cast

Everyone has a role to play and that’s the way we are created. Just like in the movies, there are the leading man, supporting cast, director, screen-writers, lighting guys, props team etc, it applies to life as well. Not everyone can be the lead actor. Some are more suited to be supporting cast, just like me! :p I know that ever since I’m in my poly project teams. I’m a very good assistant to the leader, but not a good leader. I always feel that I can build on an idea but never come up with an initial brilliant suggestion. So, I’m resigned to being 2nd class and know my place in life. To me, leaders are born, not cultivated. No matter how hard you train the person, he just can’t succeed that leadership role because he’s just not built for that role in life.

But don’t be despair. Leaders can’t do their job well without his trusty side-kick. He’s the one who organize the nitty gritty details so that the leader can perform and sell to the crowd. That’s why Soon and me are always great partners. We know when to excel and when to retreat to optimize one another’s strengths and cover one’s weakness.

But there are times whereby the supporting cast has to step up if the leader is gone and out. It’s the time to perform and it takes lotsa guts and determination to make the rest convince you can be a leader. For e.g. I was pushed to become a leader in my final year of undergrad studies. No choice, ‘coz after the 1st group meeting, I know I can’t count on my mates to lead and do the work. So, I stepped up and lead their thru. I pumped in double the effort to ensure my team succeeds, and WE DID!! So I was very proud with the end results and got pretty decent grades. That was my defining moment. If only I can capture that on film. Kekeke…

So, enough said. Everyone needs everyone. No one can perform without each other. You can’t live in a world of pure leaders or vice versa. It has to be a balance. It’s the whole eco system of life. Just like a food chain. Some are the prey and some are the hunter. No prey, no hunter. Simple?

I still love myself for who I am. Laid back, always looking cool, but when the time for me to step up, I know I can do the job. So, for the time being, I’ll just let the others shine while I support them wholeheartedly and happily. ; )

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

2nd break-up in 2 weeks..

Tracy just broke off with her boyfriend. It’s the 2nd break-up in 2 weeks!! Sheesshh…What?! Is this the month of break-ups or the best thing to do before the New Year. I could join their club before year-end as well. Hmmm…

I think of it as freeing oneself from misery, since both parties are unhappy and what’s the point of staying together? It can be just liberating as skinny dippy!! Life is all about getting together and parting. It need not be sad and solemn. It’s just that the time is up and it’s time to move on to other things..other happier things. Sadness is the first thing that creep up and tears are natural and free. Cry for all you want, but it’s a form of liberation too. After the tears dried up, you are the same o’person that we know. If both parties can’t see eye to eye anymore, or their ideals aren’t at the equilibrium, the alternative route is “exit”. I know it’s the easy way out, but why make things difficult for each other and drag the whole issue for months and even years. (as if I’m talking about myself…kekeek..) JUST DO IT. Period!!

It’s not the end of the world. Suit up and hit the track. Sports, shopping and traveling is the BEST-EST way to beat this and boredom. Rope in your girlfriends or guy pals and you have yourself a rolling good time!!! Woooooo!!! Hahahaha…Jo, let’s go shopping!! Kekeke… :p

Monday, December 03, 2007

My 1st 42.195km medal!!!

Completed my 1st (hopefully not my last) marathon!!! Woooo!!! It’s a FANTASTIC feeling crossing the finishing line. Especially when you preserved with 2 of your bestest friends of 10 years, it makes it the more sweeter. The crowd’s gone, and there no cheering but we still are more than happy to indulge in our own world of happiness and joy. Soon and JC had busted knees and I had busted ankles. It’s bad, real bad. Soon couldn’t even walk after the race. And bloody hell, there’s no available cabs in sight, so have to dial for one.

We had a bad tan but it’s worth it. Hahahha…it’s been a long time since I went for one :p Oh ya, we finished in 8hrs 15mins. I could have finished ahead of time but definitely without my pals by my side. We stopped at 19km and WALKED the rest home. That’s 23km of heat, sweat and dragging our battered bodies. I could psycho myself past the pain barrier and ran at least another 5-10km, then I’m done, but we made a pact to finish together, and we did :)

I’m pretty sure we are the last few that made it back alive. Coz if you’re at the back, it’s all the injured participants who die die want to cross the line and get their winner’s tee and medals. Commendable!!! Old uncles, aunties, they are all zooming past us and we can only watch. Hahah…

Now that I had completed 2 categories of the 3, the next event will be 21km. *must complete the trilogy ma…kekeke* Then after completing all 3 events, it’s freestyle and can complete in any category I want. Hahahah…that’s what we 3 decided during our run.

So next year, Jo, Irene, Ser, Jess and maybe HS you can join us for the run and we can have lunch after that!! I promise we will not come in 8hrs. hahaha…in fact when we past the 19km mark, it’s only 3hrs, so it’s a pretty decent result ; )

Till next Dec for our annual marathon running!! Start training now, girls!! :p

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Best Birthday EVER!!! 2007 is a year to REMEMBER!!

Rui En believes in this and I guess it makes A LOT of sense. Quote:

you try to be somebody for everybody, but in the end, you are nothing to yourself”.

It’s something along this line. It’s very true man. Everyday life, you try to be a son, father, boyfriend, husband to someone that she wants or hope you to become, that you lose your self-identity and become an empty shell. You don’t know what you really want to be for YOURSELF. So this ties in with my earlier quote of “you are only responsible for your own happiness”. Only God can bring happiness to everyone, not us, mere mortals. Let him go wonders. He only created us to be responsible to oneself and no one else except to Him.

Very interesting quotes I’d heard recently. Maybe it’s showing me a sign that it’s time to take action, and it’s the “best” time to do it. I’m bidding for the right time and hope for the best. You guys, especially Jo, should know what I’m talking about ya? My marriage.

Anyway, received another FANTASTIC prezzie today. It's the very nice and very expensive Korea Soccer Jacket. It costs $109 man!!! It's very very very sweet of the guys. Really touched that they make a point to make me feel special when they are busy with their exams and work. It's definitely the year to remember. :) They are the best-est friends any human being can get!! You guys win hands-down!! and feet too!! keekekek...I'm really really humbled and greatest honour to have you guys as friends in this lifetime. I really am :) Hope our friendship will last this whole lifetime and strengthen as time grew old with us. Hurray to our bond!! (this goes out to Jo, Soon, Jess, HS & Serene) Thank you thank you thank you!! love you guys to bitssssssssssssss!!!!

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Wish me speedy recovery for Sunday's 42km marathon..

Was sick from Monday until today. Feeling MUCH MUCH better!! My company doc suspects I may have stomach ulcer :( But I totally agree with him too. Most probably I’ll go back to him after the marathon to do the scope. *Company pay ma…kekeke.. :p*

Even when I’m sick, I still insist on recovering my health back and go for Sunday’s marathaon. 42km!! No joke man!! Now I need my health and strength back before Sat, or else it will be very very difficult.

Wish me good health and speedy recovery, girlfriends!! ; )

Sunday, November 25, 2007

It's my 25th BIRTHDAY!!




*here's the pics of my shopping and caking cutting "ceremony"...kekeke:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! I’m a quarter of a century old!!! Steady right…kekekek…only 25 lah!! :p In my years on Earth, this year is the ONLY year that I received the most prezzies!!! Yiiipppeeee!!! I LOVE them all!! Coz it’s a gift from the heart :)

Here’s the low-down of my lovely gifts:

1. Tee & ear-rings from Irene
2. Cuff-links & “Love” letter from Jo
3. Polo Tee & Roses from Tracy
4. “Tiramisu” cake from Yve
5. A surprise gift from Annie (Irene’s friend and yet to receive..)

and various red packets from my folks and my grandparents :). And today, after a good dinner at the zi char stall opposite my block, we had cakes!! YES! 2 cakes!! One is a hazelnut chocolate cake from my sis and another is a blackforest from Irene. And they both taste FANTASTIC!! But I’m more inclined towards the hazelnut. Kekeke…v v v v NICE!!

And yesterday after our collection of the race packs, walked about the Sports Expo. Then spotted a water-bag & sunglasses!! It’s bloody nice & cheap loh. The bag only $48 complete with the bladder and the shades only $145 with 2 extra interchangeable lenses!!! Aaahhhh!!!! It’s a great deal to resist. So, I bought them today, just to buy these things. Then went Suntec to jalan jalan and bought this nail care kit from Israel. It’s those cart stall and surprisingly they have 3 other outlets in Singapore, i.e. Great World, J8 and Vivo. Anyway, it’s 45bucks for 1 set and 2 for 90. So I got 1 for myself & 1 for Irene. SHIOK!! Today I’m super broke liao…hahaha…but it’s worth it ; ) definitely going there again to replenish my stock when I’m done. They have other dead sea products as well. Kinda reasonable price and they have a website as well, so it’s pretty easy to know their products. Try it, it’s http://www.vardimigdal.com/. And I don’t have commission by recommending this. Hahahah… :p

And i was talent spotted again!! kekeke...It's my 3rd time. Anyway I gave that guy my no. but I'm not going to go for anything. Just feel shiok about getting spotted again, means I'm handsome!! kekeek.. :p

Ok lah, I need to polish my nails now!!

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Met my ex & Justin's in trouble..

Knocked into Lee Ann today at Amoy food centre! Actually didn’t notice her, but from a distance, I can sense that there’s a babe in front, so when I look up, it was her…hahahah…my 1st reaction was, “What should my reaction be?”. Coz our last conversation was that she’s pissed that I kept delaying our dinner, but it turned out ok. We said hi’s and she’s looking good, but her complexion may have been a tad off. Kekeke…anyway everything’s ok. At least she’s smiling at me :)

There’s always 2 sides to a coin. When there’s a good thing, there’s always a bad thing happening soon. It turns out to be Justin. His relationship with his girlfriend has taken a toil. Most likely they are breaking up soon. Hope everything’s ok with him. The last time when his girlfriend initiated the break-up, he just teared when I asked him. It’s my 1st time seeing a guy cry. He’s very much in love with his girl then. But now, his girl is giving out signals that they should part ways. I feel it’s good for him, coz in his current state, he’s like having no girlfriend. She’s practically working everyday and when she’s on off, they barely spend 24 hours together. Oh well, I just hope he will be ok and keep himself occupied.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Another Pressie!!

Had received my “real” gift from Tracy. She bought me a Tommy Hilfiger polo tee!! It’s costs a bomb man…coz she passed me the receipt in case the size doesn’t fit and need to exchange. Hahhaah…1st time I know how much my birthday pressie costs.. kekeke…but she a keen eye. Even she haven’t seen me for soooooooo long, she still manages to guess my size. Not too bad my girlfriend…hahahah… :p

Nothing much to say. Only my pressies for this month…kekeke..more to come??

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Self Reflection...and it's from TV!!

This morning was watching the show, 7th Heaven, and this phrase really struck me:
“You are only responsible for your own happiness.”
People will always be heart-broken when a relationship fails, and tears are inevitable. But it's alrite. It's not your fault if things aren't going your way and everyone may see you are the "bad guy". You don't have to answer to any of them, only to YOURSELF. I feel that we can always reflect on this when we are confused or on wits end. If you can’t be happy, how can you spread it to others, i.e. you loved ones, friends etc. Hmmm…I’m beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. After hearing this, everything becomes simpler and less confusing. Nothing matters more than my own happiness. Every other thing will take care of itself and time will heal all wounds. I hope all the people who are experiencing what I'm going through, to be able to find strength through his/her friends and family and also through the things they do. :)

See! Who say TV is a bad thing…you can learn a thing or two from watching TV 24/7. hahahah…

Saturday, November 17, 2007

My BIRTHDAY!!!

Had a very hectic week..a lot of urgent stuff and was busy like a bee. Even went to work this morning, which only applies when I’ve tons to do. But it’s alrite, I don’t mind coz the workload is really great this time of the year.

But my week was sweet coz I received a birthday prezzie from Yve!! It was the 1st thing I see when I came back yesterday. My mum even sms me that I’ve a parcel. Didn’t know who’s the sender until I opened it. It is a tiramisu cake!!! It’s fake of coz..but it was damn real!! She’s e sweetest sista ever!!! Hahahahah…really very touched coz she’s know doing her FYP and her exams are near, so it makes it the more sweeter!! ; )

So far, I’ve received 2 prezzies. Had a nice bouquet from Tracy and now, my sista’s “cake”. And come Mon, Tracy’s gonna pass me the “real” birthday gift…hahahahah…so happy!! 1st time received so many things. Really appreciated these people who remembered my day (and those who yet to pass me theirs…kekeek)…love ya guys!!

Can’t wait for Mon!!! Muackk!!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

What's your talent?

What's yr talent? hmmm...i don't know mine even after 24yrs!! Kinda distrubing...i always believe we are made to do something on Earth. Something unique from others...what's yours, if you've found it??

Now preparing for X'mas, so gotta send out ideas for brain-storming...hahahah...hope it will be better than 2006. Gotta run off and write the email now, Jo... :p

You guys just remember to reply me fast...and i mean FAST!!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

I wanna be a DAD!!

Just watched the show, The Game Plan. Pretty good and heart warming. Suddenly have the urge to go have a kid right now!! Hahahah…coz the kid is so cute and you wish you’re the dad. Maybe my biological clock is beginning to tick. :p But I’m always worried my kid will turn out wrong…maybe too educated and watched too much documentaries. Make you kinda uptight about conceiving. Anyway, I love kids, so I hope they will come soon but I’m pretty sure it’s not gonna with my wife.

Reassessing the situation now, so no worries guys, I know what I’m doing :) Back to kids, they are so cute and lovely but also a lifetime of commitment. So must make doubly sure before doing the most major thing in your life.

Have kids, that’s where you’ll truly know the meaning of love…pure innocent love ; )

Monday, November 12, 2007

A Day Out.

Today I’m on leave. Went out shopping as planned & even caught a movie, Pleasure Factory. Think the movie adds more emotions to my already blue mood. The story line and music are the culprits. It’s such a sad story and made me think back on all the bad things I’ve done and the material stuff that I’ve bought & intend to buy. I feel so small…anyway with the heavy mood and dark skies (I hate shopping on rainy days!!), I dragged myself to go shopping. Can’t believe I’m saying that!! Drag myself to shopping??!!! Where did that come from?? :( But when after the show, at lobby I saw my 1st crush!! Hahahaha….didn’t call out to her, but of all places and time. The 1st thought is, “she don’t need to work??”. Anyway, it’s pretty nice to see the people I met in my earlier years. She’s my crush in Pri.5. :)

Then went Suntec for some window shopping. Saw 1 of my camp mates, but still I didn’t call out to him. Just saw him walked past. So today, I’d seen 2 people I know. Feels pretty nice.

But I guess I’ll have to record today in my top 10 list of “Worst day of my life”. Rainy weather, sad movie (suppose to be a R21 show!!), too many thoughts surrounding my personal life have really made my leave day a lousy one. A VERY lousy one. Was thinking a lot, A LOT today, even when I’m watching tv. Having suicidal intents again and I’m really, seriously, thinking of engaging a shrink. Have always be bugging by this issue for so long. I wonder when can I resolve this.

1 big discovery I found in facebook is that, Irene’s in it too!!! Found out when I invite my contacts in yahoo address book. Wah!!! Think it’s the biggest discovery since our relationship begins. She didn’t tell me, but I always have the curiosity to find out. But it’s unintentional when I saw her. Hmmm…I’m ok with it, coz she’s entitled to her privacy as well. I’m just shocked..literally. Anyway, no big deal :)

Then on Sun, when I told her I’m going Shanghai with my female colleague for business. She was rather upset via sms. She said she’s uncomfortable but there’s nothing she can do, as she’s feeling insecure and stuff. And she’s said we are drifting apart (the usual thing she will say when we are not close) and after that, she told me to enjoy my leave. Wah kao!! After saying those things, how to enjoy rite!? Haiz…anyway I’m back home writing this blog instead of shopping. Totally no more mood liao. I guess, when I’m emotional, good or bad, I tend to write it down rather than saying it out, coz it will take forever! I can be nagging at times…hahahaha…

Hope this phase will pass fast and I can get on with my life. Or I can see the shrink. Any recommendations?

p.s I need X’mas to be perfect to end 2007 on a high note. And I’m gonna get my Trek bike by end year, after my bonus!! Kekekeek… :p

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Jo, my BEST-EST gf!!

Been an ok wk. My dad bought a new digi cam!! It’s the newest Lumix!! 8 mega pixel..now I can take more pretty pics with it, and w/o the red eye effect…arrrggghhhh.. :p

Had supper with Charles and Jo. Pretty good and relaxing. Hope it can last forever. Really need the time out with my pals, esp Jo…miss her lots when I’m feeling down. Don’t know what I’ll do when she’s away. Just like the time when she’s in Aussie. But I’m just glad she’s back for good. I guess she’s like my pillar of strength, even though she’s not by my side most of the times. But because we connect at a level where no one can go to, I feel she’s the only one who can understand me, and I can truly be myself, i.e. being all girly and stuff…hahahahah…and there’s no judgement, I’m very sure of that!!

She’s my best-est friend EVER!! Love her lots and it hurts when she’s sad and tear. I don’t know how to put it in words lah. But it transcends beyond basic friendship, coz we are always standing by each other and try to be there for one another. We just LOVE each other too much!! And losing our friendship is totally out of our question.

I don’t know what I’ll do when she’s married and have a family of her own..hmmmm…I guess, I’ll miss her lots ba. Just don’t move her home too far from mine, if not it will be even more difficult to meet up!!! Aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!! That’s unimaginable!!! Hahahahah…

This post is just for her. Don’t think I dedicate a whole post to her yet, so it’s about time I do it. Coz I love my best buddy, best-est gf, best-est shopping companion..kudos to the best human who has prettify my life in the last 6 years and more to come.

Love you!! Muacckkk!!! *hugz*

Monday, November 05, 2007

Deepest thoughts...on the edge...

All my life, I’ve been pleasing people, being there for them and be their friend/confidante…but when it’s my turn to be depressed/sad/suicidal, where’s everybody? And of all times, I have to choose to be in this state of mind when everybody’s busy with school/work/lives. Just my luck, isn’t it?? God, how come you’ve created me this way?? Why do I have to endure all this??!! I’m your child, but why can’t feel any love and care in this world, where I’ve given out so much to other, but received none. Am I not deserving of such love? I’m flesh and blood, body and soul too. Can you take a pity on me and give a little more to me in this period of desperation..?? I’m begging and asking, as you said,“ ask and you shall receive”. And I’m sincerely doing that now.

They said, “walk a mile in their shoes before judging them”, but I’ve walked in so many of them, felt their needs and empathize with them. But has anyone really walked in mine?? Is being a goody two-shoe, nice guy always an easy target for bullies and unfair treatment? What it takes to live on this planet? Questions questions questions…who can truly answer them?????????????????????????

I tried my best to treat everyone equally and help within my power to make each party happy, but always gone unappreciated. No “thank you” or “謝 謝”or “sorry for all the trouble you’ve gone through”. I’m always saying all these but never on the receiving end of such compliments and gratitude. I’m such a safe guy and playing it safe all my life. Sometimes I just wanna let it all out, but the consequences will be disastrous. Tried once and got a heated argument with my dad. It’s not worth in the end. Aaaarrrrgggghhhh!!!

I can safely say that I’m a good friend to my close friends, and try my best to be there for them. I hope they felt that too. Your good friend here, really need some loving here, if you are reading this. I don’t need words, just a shoulder to lean on and lots of love. Love, that I can take to the grave with; held closely to my heart. I can forsake love of another woman but I can never do without love from my family and friends (only the closest ones). As I’m growing up, I am slowly realizing that loving another woman is becoming less important, and what I must pursue is, friendship love. The closest kind. The kind that is pure, no prejudice, and ever committed. No storm can waver this bond. I need that. Deep and long-lasting.

I finally learn the true meaning of soulmate. After so many years of watching drama serials and being in so many different relationships (i.e. friendship, family, BGR), the definition is simple. A person whom you will turn to when you in trouble/sad/happy/afraid, and she/he is the 1st person you can think of, way after the honeymoon period. A person whom you can share a meaningful conversation with and feeling no inhibitions when baring your soul. A person who gives meaning to your life and adds value to your existence. A person who knows how to make you tick, emotionally/sexually/physically. Is it very difficult to find here, in Singapore?? It’s sure is, coz I haven’t found mine yet. “YET”, is a good word to use here, meaning there’s still hope of searching during your time on Earth. It may takes a lifetime to find it, but I wouldn’t mind doing that, if it takes me to every corner of the Earth. But I reckon, by the time I reach the 1st corner, I may be too old to reach others.


I think this time round; I’ve really reached my max. With my training on hold, I’m feeling more and more lethargic and having a wandering mind. Thinking too much is certainly bad for health. Don’t know how come all those great man can think so much everyday…hmmmm…I think I’ve to join Serene in Down Under. Hahahah…seriously, I’m contemplating that, but it just doesn’t fit into my schedule. The next plan is, getting a bike and starts cycling and gets my training regime back on track, all at once. I hope I can find the strength (mental) to kick-start all these again. Feeling very drained from thinking about Irene and me. All the permutations/outcomes/consequences are killing me everyday. I just can’t get it out of my system!!

I don’t like to rely people on emotional needs, coz I know they can’t always be around when I need them. I would wallow in self-pity instead of intruding on others. I don’t wanna owe anybody anything. I don’t wanna them to feel obliged to do it for me, just because they are my friend and unable to reject me (coz I’d been there for them). I don’t want that. I DON’T NEED THAT. I just need a friend to have a conversation with and share the good times of the past.

Can you do that?

Sunday, November 04, 2007

24th Nov 1982...25 yrs on..

Had a pleasant surprise last fri at work. Someone sent me flowers!! Hahahah…actually I know who it is when I received the phone call from my receptionist. Coz she’s the only person who will send me flowers out of so many friends. And also, only she and my wife have my office address, so that makes the guessing much, much more easy. It’s Tracy!! Kekeke…she was weird from that morning onwards, asking me whether I’m working that day. But still it didn’t struck me as something funny, coz she’s always forgetful. Anyway, when I got the flowers and got a few stares and looks…the feeling’s SHIOK!! Reckon I’m the only guy in my level, or maybe the entire building, to have flowers at his desk. It’s 6 stalks of white rose with a cute teddy. She’s the sweetest, isn’t she?! And it smell pretty nice too. Most probably it’s my 1st and last time ever, to receive flowers from the female species.

Very heartwarming and very special. Definitely made my day and days to come. This is my month. It’s my birthday. Another year past, another year older. Well, any wishes? Nothing in mind though. Good health to my family and myself, and my close friends too. But the biggest wish of all might have to be, to be able to rid myself of the predicament I’m having between Irene and myself. Hope it will be settled, bad or good.

Gonna live in the moment and enjoy myself while I can and planning my X’mas shopping way ahead of time to get prezzies for everyone I love.

Love ya.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Shitty Bullies

I always have the impression that buyers/purchasers are very prestigious posts and unrivalled. But reality sinks in and it’s totally loop-sided. People will make use of us to arrange purchases and I mean, EVERYBODY. There’s no “please” or “excuse me” here. You just have to do it, even you’re not asked to directly. So, whenever you see “S&P”, you know you got a job at hand, without being told. And if by any chance you didn’t see it, arrows will come piercing through your heart, and people will hound after your blood. Even so, we still have to be polite and courteous, at our boss’s instructions. We can be assertive but not rude, and always be professional. How to do that, when everybody else’s is not doing it. It’s not fair. LIFE’S NOT FAIR. Grow up now!!

When they need our help, they are very nice. But even that, is on the rare occasion. And when we require their assistance (even on the minute basis), they will be haughty and shun us away like houseflies. We are like admin, but come to think again, it’s WORST than admin. Even the cleaners garner more respect than us. There’s no respect for our services and personnel. Luckily, we are a tight group. We look out for one and another and make a mockery out of life. Laughter and rowdiness are the main staples of our daily routine. We are the envy of the company. Coz, we are able to talk loudly and anyway we like it. Our job requires us to do that. Hahhaahah…it’s a blessing. Being able to express ourselves amongst the hustle and bustle in this job, is a MUST HAVE. You must be thinking my colleagues are all youngsters, but you will be surprised that mature workers can be twice as fun. The age group falls in the 50s. I’ve 3 “uncles” aged 55, 50 and 1 at 62!! The rest sums up at 34, 28 and 31. I’m the youngest at 24½. Hahahaha…

Back to the subject, bullying has always been a constant in our lives, but afraid to put a stop to it, even if it happens to us. We are totally hopeless!! Especially us, Singaporeans. We are not street-wise and less is always more. So, we will be minding our own business and rid of any troubles that can implicate our lives further. We don’t need that anymore. Our work and personal life are already in a mess; we definitely do not need more shit from these troublemakers.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Cheering my baby sis on!

only writing this bcoz my sista needs it...kekeke...hope she pass her TP tmr and get her licence soon!!! i'm totally shagged...gonna slp now...nite babes...

p.s hate doing new ships...shitty work... :(

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Appreciate ALL our Foreign Workers..Regardless of Color!!

When you think of expats, what’s the first thing that pops in your mind? White collared Caucasian men/women buzzing around in their BMWs, right? That’s stereotyping. How come, whenever people mentioned expats, it’s always the Caucasians that gets all the attention and glory? And every time we speak of foreign workers, it’s always the same old nationalities that make it to the list, i.e. Indian, Bangladeshi, Indonesian. We have to be fair and not labeling them in such a way. As long as they are not Singaporeans, and are working on a permit, they are foreign workers. Simple as that, colors aside. Please give credit to those lowly paid foreigners, who are actually contributing to our GDP. They may not be well-educated and living in condos, but they literally build our nation with their bare hands. They sweat it out almost 7 days a week, long hours, inferior living quarters and simple fare. On top of that, they still need to face our discriminating glares. I’m sure they don’t need that. I always feel we can do something good for them. The most recent is, the government enforcing companies to insure their workers with insurance. I think it’s about time we do something for them, especially the “foreign workers”. At least, if something bad happened to them, their families get some form of compensation.

I don’t have anything against the white collared expats, but I just feel that us, Singaporeans, should also show our appreciation to those who slog it out in adverse weathers and acknowledging their efforts to the nation. As our pledge goes, “Regardless of race, language or religion”, we should embrace everyone who makes Singapore what it is today, and better in the future.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Go Go Go!!!

I’m officially bored now. Kekek…writing my blog during office hours AGAIN! :p nothing much I can do in Singapore over the nights and weekends. Been waiting the right time to go overseas for my R&R. Thailand seems like a nice place to go, given the extra info on a farm stay near Korat Province, 2hrs drive from Bangkok. (it’s written in last Sunday Times, 14 Oct.) Air-con tent, suddenly sounds very tempting and soothing. The pictures are amazing and makes me wanna go there straight away! Hoping it will materialize soon…very very soon…

Completed a book by Skoko Tendo, Yazuka Moon. It’s an autobiography by a yazuka’s daughter’s life. It’s a true account and it’s damn sad but a wake up call for people who are trapped in their lives and no one to turn to. They should read this. Simple, but moving. If you’re emotional enough, she could shed a tear or two. Deep down, I hope the best for her and her baby daughter. Hope her life will turn for the better and all her suffering will be behind her and finally she can find a really good man and settle down. She’s been thru hell, back and went straight back in. So much so that, you think it’s so surreal you can’t believe she really went thru all that shit. She’s a strong character and I hope to emulate her spirit. It’s really the spirit of the yazuka. Undeterred, calm, self-sacrificing. Wooo…a little too much for me to do all those. I’ll try my hardest to be like that. The weird part is, after reading the book, it has a calming effect and I’m at peace with myself. Hmmm…voo-doo? Hahaha…I think it’s just me.. :p

Have the urge to write my biography now! Keke…maybe with enough “force”, I might just do it soon. (Jo was the one who encouraged me to do so) Well, I’ll keep on it and update you guys, if it really becomes a reality. *crossing my fingers* Need not be the next J.K Rowling. Just be myself, Nicholas Leong, will do…will do…it’s all that matters..Me and myself. In one, at last.

Friday, October 12, 2007

End of a emotional week...hmmm...

Yesterday, had lunch with my detested supplier, Unitor. Talked about she’s being very lucky with maid to look after her chores and her mum taking care of the baby. She’s pregnant now, so she may rope in her mum-in-law if more help is required. The thing that left a bad taste in my mouth is that, she can proudly say she only bathed her first born once!! Once!! My god…what kind of mother are you??!!! Then she talked about not being there for the kid and unable to take care of her as she’s always working late. Everyone said she got good life. ‘Coz got so many people look after her kid. She further added on that she’s working hard in this society to provide for them. Then some of the ladies, who are also mums (who cannot tahan), said they are also working and taking care of their kids as well. Then she giggled softly.. Pai Seh!! With a capital P and S!! Without the mother and child bond, the relationship is definitely not strong. It’s so typical of the younger people now. The executives and yuppies. Depends on maid on this and that. Even child raising also leave it to them. They think all they need to do is, “Fuck and Go”. Where got such thing!!??? You need to educate and inculcate the right values to them as well. What kind of parents are they?? They are not FIT..!! :(

Another down point of the week >>> One of my colleagues from the bunker department is bloody inconsiderate and insensitive. I used to pity him ‘coz everyone also dun like him because of his erratic behavior. But now, I’m slowly leaning towards the majority. ‘coz he’s really an insensitive ASSHOLE!! I’m those who’s always in favor the weak and minority, but he’s too much that I can’t tahan anymore..arrrgghh!! Don’t why I’m still friends with him. Always criticize people on their outlook. There’s a new temp guy and he’s kinda shy and soft, so he judged him as sissy. And there’s other guy, who’s in his 40s, tall and fit, but kinda gayish, and he deemed him as unfit just because he doesn’t have rippling muscles like he do. This colleague of mine, really got no brain. How can compare fitness to muscles. Call himself a bodybuilder. STUPID ASSHOLE!! Other times, he’s just a jester, making a fool of himself. He really thinks that the whole world owes him SOMETHING. Haiz…he just got a pathetic life!! And I mean it!! DEAD ON!! Only gym, home, night class. Nothing else. If I’m a girl, I wouldn’t even wanna be close to him. He don’t even respect women!! Let alone bedding one. GET A LIFE BRUDDER! How’s that right in your face!!

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Being Alive is a Blessing

It’s me again. It’s a time where I’m free in my office hours to write my blog…kekeke…actually was suppose to post this last nite, but my sis was using, so couldn’t do it. Anyway, I was lost in my train of thoughts and forgotten what I wanted to write. :p These thoughts were floating in my mind during my run last night. Here’s the lowdown >>>

1. A age whereby I do not yearn for a relationship.
Hmmm…I guess it’s because of the situation I’m in now. My relationship with my wife wasn’t fantastic, so this plays a major part of it. Too many “things” I do not like about her, i.e. physical and my feeling towards. I know I know!! I know I’ve broached on this subject before, but this thought’s always in my mind whenever I feel negative towards her. I don’t know whether I should keep trying or give it up. It may be the best thing for the both of us. No point struggling to keep this relationship going and be miserable. No one has the courage to come forth and say, "Ok this is enough! It’s time to settle this and it will be better for us to go our separate ways. Period." Apparently, I’m not the strong one here. In fact, it’s her. She can bring a smile to her face whenever she sees me, not knowing where the relationship is heading. She’s willing to keep this going as long as I do not mention “divorce”.

I feel that I’m becoming the man that I loathe in my single-hood days, i.e. chauvinistic man. As long as I bring the bacon home, I need not care about the wife. But I guess it’s because he don’t love his wife anymore. I’m becoming the man that all drama serials love to portray vividly and it’s not I wanna become. I wanna get out of this dreaded cycle and leave my hometown behind me and start afresh, alone. I got tons of ideas and things I wanna do NOW, and I can do much better without the ring on my 4th finger. I can go on and on and on on this topic, but there’s no better way than writing what I feel and looking back (and reflecting) on my thoughts and actions.

2. Feisty M’sian women
I don’t know much about these women, but those in my workplace are totally bummer. All are loud, feisty like chilli padi and bloody inconsiderate. It’s as if they want everyone to incur their wrath. I’ll say, “FUCK OFF!! And get a LIFE!!” This woman (see why I never use the word “lady”, 'coz she don’t deserve that term) from my Finance department, always come down and looks like the whole world owes her. For your info, she’s no hot chick. Anyway, this week, she came down and couldn’t find the invoice, so she cursed and swear, how come it’s gone…“they have legs and could run away”. Oh come on! Be professional. Find it yourself. Stop being a SPOILT BRAT!! Just because you’re pregnant, doesn’t mean you can be a tyrant and roam the office like everyone got to give in to you, BITCH!. That brings me to this point. HOW THE FUCK SHE GOT MARRIED??!!! What’s so good in her that a man is willing to lay down his life for her??? I don’t see any quality that marks her a great wife and doting mom. I pity the kid who’s gonna inherit the same shit as her. Hopefully, her dad’s genes are much MUCH well off than hers…..BITCH..

3. Almost died from a car accident.
Last night was the 1st time I thought I could die. Just like that! This further stamps my sentiment, that life is indeed very, very fragile. I was at the cross junction, waiting the green man. Then suddenly, in a split second, I saw a taxi smash the butt of a white Toyota. The car spun like in the movies and landed on the opposite traffic light junction, before coming to a full stop. And it followed by a big “WAH” from some guy, somewhere. Don’t know who, ‘coz my eyes were so fixated on the car that I never realized, if the car spun the wrong way and back towards me, I could have died. It was bloody FAST. You definitely have no time to react!! Lucky it wasn’t a fatal accident and both drivers are perfectly fine, so I walked off. At the accident site, the stupid cyclist can even watch at the car, while it comes to a halt, then started moving his position. Bloody HELL, he’s JUST next to the car!!!! He should ran before it stops man!! Plain stupid!! Haiz….just glad all parties, including MYSELF, are good and still breathing ; )

Monday, October 08, 2007

Rainy day...in my life...kinda dark now.. : (

Was on leave today. Accomplished the things I wanted to, i.e. swim and getting my groceries. However, my biggest upset was not able to get my CDs..Apparently, Sembawang Music Store in under reno and MJ is totally into selling Chinese music only..totally SUCKS!! Anyway, my pride today is to be able to swim 100 laps in under 3hrs..in fact it’s 2hr 57mins. Pretty cool uh…kekekeke…was v happy w myself..weather wasn’t fantastic, but I managed to pull thru. It rain, stop and rain again..but it was satisfying…v shiok!!! :p

Oh ya, my wkends were pretty gd as well…my niece was v cute!! Can’t wait for her to get bigger..and I bought the mountain bike for Irene @ 250bucks…that just burnt a big hole in my pocket. Total expenditure so far since 28 Sept is, 900++. That’s why I gotta save and scrimp this month, or maybe into Nov as well. But I jus calculated by bringing lunch to work and eating out, doesn’t make any much difference. The most only 20-30cents. But mentality it makes me feel that I’m making a great effort…arrrrggghhhh…pitiful pay packet!!

Spend spend spend…lots to buy, but gotta set the priorities straight. The top now is my racer bike. Guess I’m gonna use my Dec bonus into this indulgence, IF I’m still in my current comp. Anyway, that’s another thought I don’t wanna think about it too much :)

Back to work tmr…hmmmm…time to pluck those stray eyebrows now!! Getting very ugly..hahahah..

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Revive the Courtesy Campaign

This happen practically every single day. I was boarding the usual frantic evening rush hour train ride, when I realize Singaporeans will always be standing right in front of the door. Initially, they will be standing behind the allocated yellow stripes, then when the time gets nearer (I called that “shot clock”), everyone will starts to creep in slowly, but surely, to the door and wait for it to open. Passengers will be squeezing into this “gauntlet” by elbowing their way in. The most surprising thing is, no one seems to mind it! There is no discrimination of profession, age, gender or size. Even the most well-dressed man, will be doing the same thing as a 55 year old uncle!

I find it amusing at times, and giggled. I know everyone wants to go home fast and get a hot bath and a hearty meal. But in the expense of being the ugly, kiasu Singaporean, I think we have to take a backseat and reflect on our actions. I reckon it's e Asian mentality, i.e kiasu n competitive..it happens in Japan n Hong Kong as well...so it's not surprising to c it here. It’s not that I favor the ang-mohs, but their actions spell out, how well their up-bringing are. In an article I read, countries like US, Europe and somewhere closer to home, Australia, they are courteous wherever they go. For example, newspaper stands can be left unattended and patrons will still duly pay the newspaper money in the coin box or container. That is their culture. If this were to happen here, the coin box might even be gone! I’m not belittling our locals, but if everyone shows a bit more initiative, life will be much better and things like theft, petty theft (i.e. not paying money for toilet visits) and even terrorism can be minimized or ideally, gone. It always starts small, and gradually progresses into more pressing issues like saving planet earth by taking public transport etc.

These countries are better developed than us, but they are able to show bits of courtesy in their daily lives and that shows that, it just takes a bit more effort to make this happen. It’s their up-bringing and their social culture that shape their character and projecting it in their everyday lives. We can start off with our little ones and shape their behavior when it has the most impact. Hopefully, in 50 years down the road, our society can be the same of any European cities and courtesy will be in our blood; and not afraid to show it.

Our courtesy movement, since the 1980s, had seen improvement, but it’s just not good enough for us to become a truly, world-class society. The government should give the Courtesy Campaign a new lease of life and make it youthful and reach out to people at all levels, by saying, “Courtesy is easy, and it’s a way of life” sort of slogan. Let’s put away some personal gain and make our home, a better place to live, work and play in.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Everything went acdly to plan.. : )

Seems lik my wkend plan went acdly to plan..kekeke…managed to buy 3 thongs on fri ($68), went swimming on sat afternoon n later went geylang serai in e evening, n sun, jus slack at home…everything was spot-on!!! V v gd…hahaha….

So e time wil come tmr 4 me to plan my wkend agn…n it’s alrdy fillin up w spaces on my calendar..wed wil b watchin, legendary courtesan (korean) @ vivocity, thurs goin swimming, fri gonna gather my folks 4 dinner @ a restaurant, sat swimming agn n sun gonna b goin 4 my couz’s baby’s 1st mth bday n finally seein e mountain bike at my auntie’s pl…gonna get Irene e bike…abt 250bucks…we’ll c abt tt…looks lik I’m gonna get my racer bike soon too!!! Aaarrrrgggghhhh!!!!…n e damage is 1k+++…must really save hard man…still got shades, accessories to get s well…

Oh well… :p

Friday, September 28, 2007

FRIDAY!?

FRIDAY!!! AGAIN……haiz….Fridays shld b a time of joy n merry-making, but it has become monotonous 4 me of late…come wed, I’ll b there during my lunch kopi session w Justin n Kelvin, discussin wat 2 do 4 our wkends…hahaha…it used to b fun, but it’s jus a drag now… :( I tink I’m over-trained n “over-worked” but I doubt e latter…hahahah…desperately need a break…a v v long break…somewhere calm, colourful, n serenading to my soul..somewhere lik Hawaii, Madrid, Barcelona, streets of Portugal, Lombok or seeing the new wonder of the world, Petra, Jordan. These r e places I hope I can earn enough money to visit these places b4 I pass on…kekeek.. :p

Today is another beautiful day (Bless God 4 tt) n I gonna make FULL use of it by……SHOPPING!! Hahahaha….gonna head off to Chinatown Point n straight to sportsmenasia shop…to get some thongs!!! Kekekeek…I’m in e mood of underwear spree.. ; ) actu it’s bcoz they r having 25% discount during its 5yr anniversary. So it gives me e excuse to buy buy n buy…

It’s not cheap though…e prices r comparable to ladies lingerie, prices ranging frm 20+ fr a simple thong to 130+ fr a Japanese branded undies (which hv lifting effects in the front n rear)…lik I said b4,” pay so much money but wear inside, no 1 can c”…but e feeling of sexiness cannot b bought by anything, until u got e chance of donning some sensual lingerie or in my case, “nice” underwear…if e price is rite, gonna get 2-3 pairs to add on to my collection… :p tink it’s gonna set me back ard 50-60bucks…it’s payday n it’s abt time I reward myself 4 being a gd boy in e mth of sept…kekeke…coz I scrimp n save during lunch by spending only $2…n our kopi sessions r shared among e 3 of us…sometimes I pay, sometimes e other 2 foot e bill…it’s pretty gd…anyway I need to chk my mini-diary n c hw much I roughly spend last mth… :) can’t wait 2 knock-off!!!

My boss didn’t approve my leave, tt’s y I’m writing this posting during office hrs…hahahaha…if not, I’ll b baskin in e sun @ bedok swimming pool. She’s damn busy to do anything loh…our P.O also nvr sign..doubt she got e time 2 approve our leaves, unless we remind her..anyway, I dun hv anywhere to go in particular, so tt’s ok :) jus wanna expend my leave…n I deserve a break…however, 4 those who wanna date me out, I’m on leave on e 8th Oct..kekekeke..waitin 4 yr sms/calls ; )

Tmr will b goin 2 maple 4 my follow-up…hopefully it wil b fast so tt I can go 4 my swim n tannin in e afternoon…dr ong better not crash my schedule!! I need e sun man…n e sun needs me…hahahha…cravin 4 e sun-tan lines which has been eluded frm me 4 some time now…need e ray of lights to energise my body, mind n soul in 1 setting…*prayin 4 soft yet beautiful sunshine tmr* jo & mei mei, pls pray 4 me s well…I need more “power” 2 make it convincing… :p

Tis posting gonna sound draggy but I jus dun care…tink it’s my 2nd longest since e interception of my 1st blog posting…I got soooooo much time on my hand now tt I hv better nth 2 do than blogging..sue me!!

Back 2 my wkend plans…come sat evening, me n irene wl throng e streets of geyland serai n soak in all e festival mood!! Definitely food samplin is e main course of tis itinerary n seein e sights n sounds of tis annual event…it’s gonna b fun, sweaty, hot n (I reckon), somehow liberating. We cfm wl b mistaken s malay loh…it’s common, so we’re used to it…kekeek…mayb we get better discounts if we can speak some malay…(hmmm..it’s abt time I put my mind into paper by signing up 4 malay language course…kekeek)

4 sun, irene’s got swim lesson frm 1-2pm…so mayb jus relax at home or do some window shoppin ba…normally Sundays r meant 4 relaxing n doin nth!! E mood set 4 Sundays r always v slow paced…dun knw y…it’s in me or us or everyone else…mayb tt’s y God make sun the Sabbath day..no work no nth…mayb he alrdy set e mood 4 us 2000 over yrs ago n tweak our senses to believing it s being a rest day, who knows?!…kekek :p whenever I tink of sun, e tot of a warm yet coolin breeze frm e beach wl b e most ideal pl 2 b in…lazing on e sunbed, slapped on my tannin oil, w a cold cold pina colada on my rite…it’s e best thing tt could happen to me now. E tot of Nigella cookin behind me (tis tot always pops up with I tink of beach..hmmm…mayb bcoz her cookin shows always takes pl there), in e beach house, wl match up beautifully n make e picture complete…PERFECT!! Siggghhhh…(it’s a sigh of comfort n fuzziness :p) life couldn’t b any better than tis…I can’t picture it any other way…mayb a golden retriever wil b a great addtn to tis ideal scenario of mine..anyway I play God in my dreams…I can add/remove anything/anyone I deem fit…kekekeke…but in e meantime, b4 I get e PR @ Malibu, I wl hv to content w sentosa, east coast n my fav swimming pool..

I tink I hv blabber enough tots 4 e day…I’ll wait 4 nightfall 2 post more tots if any comes to mind… :)

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Mid-autumn Festival...Fun or Pure Reminiscence??



Rcvd lotsa mooncakes frm my splrs tt I rejected more!! Too much to eat n I’m damn lazy 2 carry frm tanjong pagar back home…v v v cumblesome…n today even hv ice-cream frm my splr 4 sample…guess wat, I gave my colleague to bring back…kekeke..anyway it’s not e premium type, so it’s not worth e effort..

But some r really nice…v lavish package..esp e 1 I gotten frm my local splr, which he bought frm china or hong kong..at least tt’s wat e paper bag states…anyway it was so bloody gorgeous tt almost every1 in e office came to my dept, jus 2 b awed by e mooncakes…hahahah…amazing rite…but it jus keeps getting better…1 auntie called me in on e mrt where I got it frm…didn’t knw mooncake can b a centre of attraction!!?? (hw come it wasn’t a babe!!!!)

Jus wanna share it w u guys…here’s e photos of e lavish mooncake..some r filled w abalone…but trust me, it doesn’t taste tt gd…only e package makes e grade..enjoy!! n hv a lovely mid-autumn festival w yr loved ones…n not forgettin those in need of our love…hv fun!!

My friends ONLY

Need to ack e help I gotten in beautifying my blog…my baby sista, Von!!! She always initiate to help me w e blog stuff…coz I’m a total idiot when it comes 2 comp stuff…esp e new gen stuff, eg blogs, mp3, lan games etc…so I ALWAYS hv smart ppl ard 2 help me…kekeke…lik ben, shawn n my cute sis… :p

Jus wanna tell all e friends I had made in my 24yrs n counting, tt they mean a lot 2 me n definitely play a significant part, big or small, in my life…thx u 4 enrichin my life n make it even more colorful…u can ALWAYS need more colors on e canvas of life ; )

Muack muack muack muack muack muack muack muack muack muack muack muack!!!

Can’t kiss u guys enough…ehhh…only reserved 4 e babes….sorry guys, none 4 u…hahahahaah…

Hope u can continue to b part of my life forever n ever…keep on rocking babes!! ROCK ON!!

Monday, September 24, 2007

Normal wk...Unfantastic...

It’s a normal wk…at least I made it to run 18km on wed…almost didn’t make it home man…was bloody tired n tough…struggle to complete…tink I walked at least e last 5-6km…it was never-ending!!! E tot of takin a cab back keeps coming in my mind, but I preserve n made it home ard 11.10pm…imagine I started off at 7.30pm…took more than 3hrs…but my worst record is 4hrs!! hahah…start off at 7.20, finished at 11.45…hahahah…world record 4 slowest man…kekeke…but e gd thing tt happended tt nite was e courtesy of our locals…e cars stopped 4 me 2 cross n 1 incident is a malay boy stopped e cars n helped a handicapped man cross e rd…tt really touched my heart, knowing e youths today r still pretty much in sync w our moral values..thumbs up 2 our youths!!

Anyway managed to watched evan almighty on fri evening but kana sore throat aft e show ended…tink it’s e “thinner coated” chess choco my supplier gave us…got tis thinner smell which really doesn’t smell nice man…but e design was v nice loh..look actu lik a real chess set..Chinese set tt is.. ; ) so my wkend was spent w e flu bug in me…managed to crawl to e photoshoot n bbq…photoshootin was a tough job, esp if u r not smiley type, who can smile frm start to finish…I find it a hassle man…I only smile on cue…hahahaha..if not waste my smile…my smiles r precious u knw…even e photographer n e auntie also say so…kekeek…(jo shld knw tt my smiles r hard to come by..) oh ya!! Aft e photoshoot, my folks asked her abt e dinner, n she said she wanna focus on her studies now..n postpone e event 2yrs later, n my folks agreed…so tt’s 1 prob out of my mind 4 e near future..

E bbq was pretty gd..e food was fresh n succulent, but too bad I was not well, if not I’m sure to finish all e chicken hotdog n prawns!! Yum yum…n I only pay 10bucks 4 2!!!…I’m not e miser here…my colleague lagi best, he paid only 10 4 4pax!!! Hahahah…he’s e king!! All hail Javier!!.. :p

Sun was pretty lousy…waited whole afternoon 4 irene to come my pl…reach here abt 4-15 liao…tot of jalan jalan, but when e clock strikes 3, I’m all pissed n jus contented 2 watch tv at home…so I didn’t talk 2 her e whole evening…cfm less than 10 sentences…anyway, I dun care now..sian alrdy…r/s r tired…I rather hv short r/s tt r memorable n sweet…e time 4 me 2 put my life on e line is not here yet, n I still not ready to compromise on anything tt is reqd in a r/s…soooooo tink I’ll tell Irene, we’ll goin into a open r/s, whereby ea of us can date n do whatever we wan, but jus let e other party knw (courtesy)…but I knw she wil not feel rite abt it..but there’s e best I can tink of…I’m sure there wil b lotsa gd guys in her class, n it’s e best time 2 knw guys…unless all r married n hv kids!! But I doubt so… :p anyway I’m tired of tis, no r/s 4 now, if I can get myself out of tis 1st…

Ok babes, need to slp now…on m/c today..but I’m bloggin here…hahahah..til e next post..love ya!!

Monday, September 17, 2007

LOST Season 1,000,001...

It’s down for some serious writing..been a longggg time…kana scolded by my mei mei fr not posting 4 so long…hhaahah…

E most notable feeling I hv now is anger n helplessness..my dad ask me when to hold the weddin dinner AGAIN!!!???? I really hv e urge to tell him I’m not doin it anymore!! I quit!! I seriously hv no intention fr holding any bloody shit now, nxt yr, e yr aft yr n lik FOREVER!!!…aaaarrrggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

I dun love my wife anymore, so wat e fuck do I wanna hold any dinner! Wat makes u tink so…got suicidal inclinations man…e tots of jumpin down frm my flat sounds lik a pretty proposal rite now..i really really REALLY need to sit my folks down w my wife n talk abt tis…I’m goin crazy jus tinkin abt it :(

Wat can I do…goin off wherever the plane can takes me or jus hide in my friend/relative’s pl 4 e time being???? E plane trip sounds lik a gd idea…disappear 4 a mth n come back w another woman n a baby…hw abt tt???!!! Become a gigolo n disgust myself to death???!!! Feelin all e pressure’s on me RIGHT NOW!! It’s totally unnecessarily!!! I dun wanna talk, eat, slp to ANYONE 4 e next wks…work late, come back late n go to slp…DOOR SHUT…I’m gonna shut myself out of tis world…it’s cruel n I’m not capable to handle it anymore..really I m…if u can c me rite now, I can cry my eyeballs out…dun tink I can hold back tis r/s anymore…the ultimatium: marry at aug 08 or call it quit…I give myself these 2 options..if not, they can disown me all they wan..i dun care anymore..if not, they can lose tis son of their fr 24yrs, forever…

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Upbeat abt the next 3 mths..

Been a few wks since I last posted anything…was busy training 4 my runs…mon, wed n fri r days where I’ll run 10km n 20km on fris…then e other days r my off-days…was doin some light weight trainings loh…if not jus laze ard or meetin e guys…getting fitter n fitter…hopeing to get my 6pecs fast…but I jus hate doin sit-ups…coz my mat is e foam type, so v uncomfortable..anyway wil do some in my off-days lah…4 vanity!! I’ll do anything…kekek…

Jus eye-brow trimmin @ browhaus yst…jus trim abit charge me 19.26!! idiot…it was a scam loh…wan me to sign package @ 960!! Feels lik a beauty salon…so sian…even these pl also hv…tink I’ll go my wife’s pl 4 eye-brow threading..6 bucks only!!…kekeke…wil try tt soon… :p

Completed the 12km SBR last Sun…clocked a pretty gd timing..1:30:14hrs..last yr I clocked 4 the 10km stan chart was abt the sme timing..so I reckon it’s gd time!! Gonna plan 4 jo’s bday party tis sun…need to send out invites…kekek…sounds lik a events planner :p hope it turns out well n keep within the budget..

More events to come in the remaining of this yr..sept is terry fox run: 8km, nov is vertical marathan @ swissotel: 73 storey, finally e grand finale in dec, stan chart: 42.195km…looks pretty sufficient to last me tis yr…hopefully I can pack in more training runs (God, plsssss dun rain on my training days….. L) n do some strength trainin, esp my arms n abs…get some solid muscles out of those areas..

I’m done here…nth n lazy to write further… :p

Monday, August 06, 2007

Kelly Kelly Kelly Kelly...jus can't get enough of her... ; )

Had a great day today…had free lunch (thanks to the 6 mgt trainees attached to us fr training…kekek), had an easy work day, had a easy, soothing 10km run @ Bedok reservoir in e evening…wat more can I ask 4?! :p tink I slash my 10km run by 10mins…can’t cfm but I feel gd today n ran pretty consistent…anyway I jus feel SHIOK!! Hahhaah…jus can’t get enough of Kelly…n she called today 2 find a pair of missing shoes…apparently, some1 wore e worng pair back n e poor guy/gal went back w a bigger pair of “Charcoal” shoes/sandals…nvr heard of tis brand either…but charles said is branded n exp…hmmm…kekekek…anyway jus happy tt she called, even 4 e wrong reason…she got a soothing voice n it’s always nice to hear or read her sms…always full of energy n life!! Tt makes a girl or ANYONE more attractive!! Try it someday guys…it wil make u more appealing, instantly!!! If it doesn’t work, look 4 me…I’ll buy u lunch.. ; )

Gonna embark on an intensive training regime tt even scare myself…packing everyday of e wk w activities, except 4 wkends 4 family, w sports n conditioning…mon, wed wil b running 10km…tues gonna b swimming, probably 50 laps…then can fri, long distance running of 20km…thurs wil b my only free day…either stay home 2 rest or watchin movie w Irene…so if u guys wanna date me, now u knw when 2 ask me out…kekekek…sat n sun is normally a no-no…but sat morn I hope 2 make some time 4 some swimming s well…hopefully I can wake at 7 n swim till 11am…haiz…….e actitvies jus sound soooooooooo sweet n fulfilling…feel v energetic n full of zest!! Even though I’m constantly bogged down by my marriage woes…sports is my LIFE..no 1 gonna take tt away frm me…

Now, 4 tt elusive trek bike…where m I gonna get 1.1K 4 e bike alone???? Hmmmm….reckon gonna save till Dec or Feb…when I get ang-bao money n my bonus…kekekek…

Saturday, August 04, 2007

21km...Rock Climbing...HOT Kelly!!

Completed an inaugural 21km run yst nite w soon…it’s was exciting n exhilarating..!! but in e end we ran only abt 15-16km n walked e rest…but I was an achievement on its own…then we gulped down a 1.5ltr 100+ aft tt…SHIOK!!! While we’re running, I was wishin we had water-point at every 5km…but it was impossible…so we get tired n thirsty throughout e run…I reckon if there are, we should do jus fine J came back w aching thighs n calves, but it was worth it!! Slimmer lower torso n lookin sexy!! Keke…nice ass, nice legs…hahahaah…can’t help lookin at e mirror..vain pot hor…kkeke

Tot couldn’t wake up today, but apparently I did n I’m not surprised..coz I’m an early bird…haiz…not fair!! Anyway my thighs r slightly sore but not too much of a concern, coz I’m goin rock climbing today!!! Yiipppeeee!!! It’s e best thing tt happened 4 a long time…it was great experience..scaling heights n learnin a new sport!! We jus climbed abt an hr +, but my forearms r achin s though I’d been doin tons of chin-ups!!! No joke, it’s true!! It’s e same pain I experienced in army…BMT period…climbin those boulders n walls really need finger n grabbing power….too bad they dun hv my shoe size, if not I reckon I can do better loh…not fair!! N also my nails were long n I’m unable to hold my grip..i guess I was e “star” of e day coz I manage to scale all e walls w relative ease..kekeke…coz I’ve longer limbs n fitter than e rest, tt’s y I’m better…if not, I tink every1 can do s well s me J even Kelly barred me frm e blue wall (the beginner’s wall)!! Ahah….oh ya oh ya!! I must say tis, Kelly, our program planner, was a HOT, HOT chick!!! even Jo said so!!!...She wasn’t those 34C 24 36, but it’s her personality, slim fig, gorgeous smile, big doe eyes n impeccable English tt really turns me on…I dun knw y, but I get fuzzy when I hear girls speak gd English…I tink it’s sexy..n she got those laugh lines ard her corner of her lips…e.g Wong Li-lin has it…I tink it’s v v sexy…n she got it all!!! N she looks really cute too…hahahah…if I’m not wrong, she jus turn 30…n still smoking hot…ooooooohhhhhhh!!! Keep e temp down boy…hahaha…anyway, she’s a nice girl 2 b ard w…hope 2 c her more often…coz I’ll definitely b there scalin those boulders when I get e time… :p

Tt’s e best things tt happened of late…hope more gd things will happen…oh ya, had my 2nd counseling session, n it’s pretty ok..in a nutshell, the counselor had a strong feelin I’d made up my mind n tell me 2 giv it a final shot b4 deicding…alrite, I’m giving it another go…let’s c wat happen ya ; )

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Wat A WEEK..

Completed the 10km Mizuno Run last sun, but it was a disappointed..totally overwhelmed by the poor organizing, mgt, freebies n totally everything I can pin-point on!!! Cfm wouldn’t reg 4 the 2008 run…tt’s a definite! : <

Then It jus got worst s e wk went past, coz I was cheated @ this lousy geylang durain stall, i.e. Chin Yong Fruits Trading!!!! Bollocks!! Imagining eating $120 worth of durians!! U better eat yr fill man.. L b warned!! Dun go there..it’s in Lor 13..e v 1st shop if u walk frm Kallang MRT station…

Hmmm…back 2 e emotional stuff…been seein beautiful ladies w an “insignificant” other…I’m not being sarcastic but I jus abt had it w tis unfair scenario…I’m tired seein n scrutinizing couples wherever I go…soon definitely knw wat I’m talking abt..he used 2 say me when we r in sec/poly days tt dun b so critical..u may get retribution…keke…haiz….. :p

Wat is love..i might had it or might not…I nvr had those fairytale romance tt many Hollywood movies r based on…didn’t use 100% of my heart n soul 2 truly love a person…was nvr heart broken s I didn’t had much r/s…it’s less than 5…2 to b exact…u get wat I mean…I nvr love a person so much tt I will die 4 her…I’m still holdin out 4 tt special 1, even though I’m married now…I still believe she’s not e 1…somehw or rather..it sounds selfish, but tt’s hw I feel…

I’m eager 4 tt day 2 come when I’m fully in control of myself n my surroundings…when I’m confident, decisive n firm…in e meantime, I’ll jus run whenever there’s probs of e heart…other things can wait…

Monday, July 16, 2007

1st day of counselling..

1st day of work n I’m totally late…n I mean LATE, Real LATE!! I overslept to Dover!!! Hahahaah…n I reach ofc @ 9.10am…wah!! it was a record 4 me man…n I told my boss n she laughed…kekek..oh well, anything to get me off e record… :p

today we went 4 counsellin at this pl called Trinity@Paya Lebar..was a church though…it didn’t even cross my mind..idiot!! anyway doesn’t matter..to me it went well, coz I really trash out everything (but I hold back a teeny bit 4 e next individual session..) n it was brutal..tt’s wat Irene felt..she said she tot she can handle e truth, but she couldn’t…n e truth was, “I dun love her anymore”…she was shattered!! If I’m totally in love w a girl n she told me tt, I wil to…so I can feel her…but I gotta let her knw my feelings rite…I gotta b fair 2 her n myself…anyway e counselor, Sally, wil call us next Mon on whtr 2 carry on w tis service..but we alrdy decided to continue n c where tis brings us…mayb I’ll call her 2 schedule us soon…resolve tis fast n amicably.. L really hope I’ll make e rite choice..

also watched Harry Potter aft tt…was a ok show..quite exciting compared 2 e last 1 (which I watched on tv…giv me headaches!! kekekek)..anyway it’s not e main story today…

GOD GIVE ME A SIGN & ENLIGHTMENT..

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Transformers: GOOD as Gold

Jus back frm my childhood fantasy…Transformers the Movie was a blast!!! E plot was unexpectedly better than I tot, casting fit to a T n e CG was solid…no complains in all depts…yippee!!!

Really enjoyed it…e Optimus Prime’s voice-over was the original guy 25yrs ago, Peter Cullen..his husky voice make me reminisce the very 1st time I watch as a young boy…n playin w my v own transformer!! Costs abt 70bucks back then..since, I’ve given it away…spread the joy man. :)

N not forgettin Megan Fox…hot, sultry n yet v Asian lookin…she’s totally cool..didn’t get too much sex vibe frm her (which is a gd thing in tis movie), if not, ppl wil b controlling on her i/o of e Autobots. Anyway, e lead actor n actress r v gd in their acting..esp Shia..4 a 20 odd yr old guy, his acting can be honed into greatness if given more meaty roles in the future…tt’s y I wanna name my kids Shia & Mikaela when I hv them!!! Coz it’s rare & so cool…

Can’t help feelin a young boy agn…I should b feelin tt every single day, 4 e rest of my life…tink abt it my friends…it has a deeper meaning than tt…

Another note…was climbing up e stairs n realize I haven’t been kissin 4 more than 6mths…a real kiss…n I dun lik kissin my wife anymore..n it’s bcoz of her breath..oh well, I tink I can “kiss” kissing gd-bye…unless I change my wife.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

I'm BACK frm my 2wks "holidays"


I’m BACK!!! Wat a memorable 2 wks at camp…physical n mental…new friendships r bound n renewed, esp w my Sgt Leonard…he’s e typical metrosexual..more than me!! His mind’s totally wired lik a girl…needs a lot of attention n listenin..which most of his camp mates can’t provide…so I can ustand him better.. ;)

But e most memorable was a 40yr old camp mate frm other unit, wanted 2 commit suicide, in front of ME!! He wanted 2 jump down frm 2nd level…me n my friend was chattin, then suddenly he was climbin up e parapet n suittin there..i shouted, WOOOO!!, chill man…long story short, eventually, heard he wil b sent to IMH 2 stay 4 1wk…e rest is history…he’s OUT!! Scary man…almost no need 2 book out man…shit!

E 1st time I book out, I went shoppin at nite!! Went Orchard n do some window shop, so didn’t get anything….but sat n sun were e power days!! Sat went Bugis & Tampines n today went Marine Sq..spent close 2 few hundred bucks…let’s count together..

Sat:
Siam Kitchen - $35.55
Teva Sandals - $87.20
Undies - $9.90
McDonald’s - $5.70
Adidas Singlet - $29 Total: $167.35

Sun:
Zara Jeans - $75
Zara Top (for Irene) - $19.90
Mizuno Tights - $31.90
Mizuno Run Registration (Irene & me) - $35
Pizza Hut - $17++ (but it’s on Irene’s!! kekeke..) Total: $161.80

Total damage 4 2days of mad shoppin rush=$329.15. wah!! Tt’s a lot man…die!! Tis mth must save liao…but dun tink can make it, coz I’ll b goin 2 gym regularly 2 obtain my 6pecs..keke…set some new goals 4 myself in terms of physical appreance…run more, pump more.. ;)

Oh well..hope all my darlings n babies r doin gd…esp Von..but she jus told me she’s doin well..so tt’s a load off my mind…keekek…so I’ll c Jo, Jess n Soon on Mizuno Run @ 22 Jul…take care n train hard babes!! Dun slack…I expect completion frm yr side ya…hv fun n stay healthy!!

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Siloso PARTY!!










Had a memorable day yst @ Siloso…we had packed lunch (courtesy of Jo & me, coz we came up w tt idea!!), tidbits, drinks n KFC 4 lunch…hahaha…e long rainy day didn’t deampened our enthusiastic spirits as we weathered e wind n rain, n enjoyed games of vball n fribee…e highlight was Frisbee in e rain…it’s e same s wat I had played in e army w my CO…we used e entire parade sq (approx 1 football field)..was exciting n fun!!! But we could do w more sun..kekek..need 2 get tanned!!! Aarrgghhh..

It was my last hurray b4 headin 4 2wks of ICT @ Tanjong Gul camp…total of 5 days outfield..spread out 2 n 3 days respectively…dun tink wil get tanned but my face wil get e harshest treatment..n I’m supposed 2 c Dr Ong on e 30th, jus aft I come out!!! Sure die wan…sian…

Anyway I tink it was a success, coz 11 ppl turned up despite e rain..esp Winnie n Ken joining us, coz I wasn’t expecting them 2 turn up as was rainin…

Here’s the heartfelt thanks 2 every1 who turned up…Jo & Marcus, Jed & Jess, HS & Serene, Justin, and Irene…hopefully more can turn up at our event on a regular basis, lik Chia Seng & his gf, n Lorraine & Prawn-man…mayb I’ll make it a bi-mthly event…but I need yr support n “finances”…hahahaha…then we can get equipment lik tent, chiller etc 4 e nxt trip…it wil b more fun n not worry abt shelter when e weather turns bad.. :p

Till then, wil b back on 29th n hopefully wil make a posting n update u guys…hmmm…should do some serious shoppin b4 e GST kicks in…tons 2 buy, too little time n $$$$!!!! Oh ya, n hope my baby sis, Von wil recover fast n tuck in all e ice-cream n jello u can eat!! Kekeke…but dun eat too much…moderation!! ;)

Cya guys!! Hv fun w/o me!! Miss me ya…I’m expectin smses floodin my inbox…hahahahaah

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Just another day of my life..

I’m so bored I even got the time 2 blog…hahaha..busy since morn…corresponding emails, telex, phone calls..hectic hectic hectic!! So tired…now jus sent out 2 more qtrly reqns 2 my suppliers…I jus counted tt I’ve recvd 7/10 vsls’s qtrly reqn!! Mayb 8…but my colleagues, e most only 2!! Wah!! My ships must hv known I’m goin reservist soon, tt’s y submit so soon…idiot!! Kekeke…I now look lik e crazy Chinatown running amok…but actu, I’m not loh…tink more calm, coz lau jiao now.. :p

So sian…n hungry…but all in a day’s work..nth special happened, so it’s considered gd…wil b watchin Shrek 3 later…hope it wil worth every penny…coz I’ve seen 1 n 2, so not watchin 3 seems odd…wat e heck! Jus watch lah…

My hair looks lik shit! E hairstyle really cannot make it man…thx 2 army..gonna cut tis wk, e back only…then 4 e 2wks I’m in there, I’ll look lik a nerd…jus wish my hair wil grow back fast enough aft tt…havin intensive hair treatment 2 make my hair grow healthily n “fastly”…hahaha…my hair maketh my image man…”need hair 2 look suave, need hair 2 look suave”…, it’s constantly repeating itself in my mind..lik a broken recorder..but there’s nth I can do!!!! Arrggghhh…

Haiz…even typin tis I can fall aslp…so quiet my ofc…n today esp cold…

Oh well, jus need more sex, food n football…n slp too!! Nah…doubt I can get any of those nowadays…no offence 2 e girls reading my blog (u knw who u r), but where r e sensitive, demure ladies tt used 2 roamed e land so ever frequent??? R they abducted by E.Ts? or hv they become bossy n injecting too much testosterones into themselves?? I reckon e latter.

Miss those sweet, soft-spoken girls tt can only be seen in manga movies…ever soooo sweet, gentle n considerate…e modern women r not 4 me…I knw it, coz I jus married 1…hahahah…cookin, ironin, washin, house chores r becoming a tall order now…no 1 I met can do it all…it’s simple but no 1 can do it well..it’s diff 2 find some1 lik my mummy..handling both house n ofc matters..they handled so well…it’s seamless..they make it so easy…y can’t e X n Y-Gen ladies learn frm them…??? It takes a little effort 2 expose them 2 tis area of expertise…they might even lik it!! Guys now r becoming more apt in tis house-cleaning thingy…more guys r stepping into e kitchen n actu doin sth gd!! Cleaning, ironin, moppin, blah blah…I mean, if girls can’t do e job, they better learn it frm their mums fast man…coz their bfs will come aft them in no time…trust me, yr time wil come n u’ll come beggin!! It’s e basic traits a girl should hv…it’s not too much 2 ask 4 rite…I’m still finding her loh…when wl she come out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dun need a busty wife n successful in her career…jus need some1 who can handle e house well…if she happens 2 looks lik Jennylee (Beauty & the Geek 2), tt’s a bonus..kekeke.. :p anyway, girls out there, heed my advice, coz yr bfs will appreciate u more if u can accomplish tis…it’s always nice 2 hv a home-cooked meal done by yr loved one…mayb in 10yrs time, tt loved one might turn out 2 b a guy!! N gay marriages wil b rampant throughout e world by then…

Haiz….

Sunday, June 03, 2007

Netball & SMRT Family Day 2007

Had been a eventful 2 days of fun, sun and companionship..however, it was marred by a certain someone tt dented our Sat nite…n my cut during shaving (n it’s not my chin…kekekekek)

Tt someone was Soon, my gd friend fr 12yrs n goin..me n my another gd friend (we r e 3 musketeers during our sec sch days), Seng tot he had mellowed down..but we were wrong…when e goin gets tough, n we’re trailing in pts in our FRIENDLY netball game btw Jess’s friends n our mates..it was indeed not friendly at all!! We r super pai seh when he lost he’s temper n stormed off aft tt n 2 e showers…he has this competitive nature in him n aggressive in sports, esp contact sports..close friends who knw him since sec sch wil knw it’s common…but 8yrs on, apparently, he’s still e same…we r used 2 it, but it definitely doesn’t leave a gd impression on Jess’s friends..i feel it also embarrassed her s well…it puts her in a diff position..but I guess he doesn’t giv a damn..in addition, it scare e girls s well…it’s not too cool aft all man…haiz..

U can c tt we had so much fun w/o him during Capt’s ball…every1’s enjoyin themselves, laughing n having a blast…jus take e competitive spirit out of e game, n he can enjoy e game s much s any1..

He should put some ice on his temper…cool off bro!! It’s jus a friendly!! No need 2 b so pumped up n insist on winning..e whole pt is 2 hv fun n make new friends…but now, I think he jus burnt a few bridges…well…gd luck 2 him…s a gd friend 2 him, I feel he should really curb his temper, esp in front of others who dun knw him well..

Anyway, aft e game, we still carried out our activites, w/o Soon n Jess…we went Mind’s Café!! Hahah…learnt a new game, “Creanium”..i think e name’s correct, but anyway, it damn fun n intriguing…must use brain wan…e classic was HS’s bodybuilder n my version of Gone w the Wind…kekek…tink we should get tis game loh…but!! E maker can come up w e spore version, coz it’s wayyyyyyyyyy toooo diff 4 sporean…too Americanised… :p

Today was my dad’s comp family day @ Sentosa, Siloso Beach…e emcee was FANTASTIC!!! V hilarious n innovative…witty s well…always bring e crowd laughter n more laughter…hahahah…he’s damn gd…we also played Frisbee w my sis n Irene…mayb 4 jus 30mins…really too dehydrated 2 play any longer…now jus saw my shoulder peelin…hmmmm…means e sun was damn HOT, HOTTER than e belly dancers….hahahaha…there’s a dancer clad in green costume…n her fig was mose-bleeding hot…kekeke…I reckon a D-cup…coz when she shake her top, her costume was like kinda loose n shakin violently…ya ya…I was starin at her most of e time…I can’t help it…! She’s too hot 2 resist.. ;)

Hope gonna go agn soon, lik say, 16 Jun…n takers?? Pls let me knw ya…b4 I go into reservist @ 18th…hmmm…there’s another thing tt comes 2 mind. Was thinking which should I purchase…in a dilemma now..

a. Bleach my teeth, home kit @ $400+
b. Mountain bike + accessories @ $650 onwards
c. Oakley shades @ $200-$350
d. Asics/Adidas running shoes @ $200+
e. Beach volleyball + cap @ <$100

Still thinking abt it..hope 2 get 1 or 2 items soon…jus got my bonus!! Kekek…but these r wat I’ve been wantin 2 get 4 a long time, except 4 para e..

Ok lah, wil go slp on it…gonna watch my tv show now, Pirates of e Caribbean, Curse of e Black Pearl @ Ch5…!!

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Married, Not Married..Married, Not Married..Married, Not Married...

jus came back frm my "Fortune Telling" session w Tracy..she's e 1 who intro me tis..in fact she was exposed 2 tis aft her colleague brought her there...n it's proven effective, though e effective period can stretch frm 3-6mths b4 seeing any positive results...but nonetheless, it works..so seems my married life's sucks big time now, might s well giv it a try

he was v accurate in his analysis man!! he even can tell frm Irene's chinese characters tt she can "see" things...he said she's reincarnated frm a monk in her previous life...e details i shall not say it here..if u guys wanna knw, call me!! ;p anyway, i did a portrait of my new chinese name..it's still e same hanyu pinyin, jus tt e characters r diff...he said my current name's not strong n i'm too honest..so tis should help me in my career n marriage life..so i'm gonna hang it up on e 31 May, btw 8-10am to hv e maximum benefits...hope it works man...it's my last resort 2 a better life...nxt in line is counselling..

tis morn hv a thrash out w her...but surprisingly, she was ok aft tt...still can call me n laugh..weird..anyway, i took 1/2 day 2 do tis...n she kinda uneasy tt i didn't tell her..obviously, i didn't tell her i'm doin tis...jus tell her i'm goin shoppin...blah blah blah..white lies all over..

i dun when i can hv e courage 2 say everything in her face n face e music...should i keep it goin or call it quits n stop wastin ea other time...now, i'm leanin towards e latter...but if she can make me tink otherwise, e better..if not, i feel it wil be better we call it quits..

God, if u're readin tis, pls enlighten me can...pretty plssssssssssss.....

Thursday, May 17, 2007

LOST!!

Feel so lonely all of a sudden…dun knw y..jus feel v alone n lost…e world’s a cruel pl 2 live in..a pl not fit 4 any gd ppl..

Knowing ppl now has become a practice jus 2 get u where u wanna b…it’s no longer bcoz u wanna knw tt person bcoz u lik him/her but 4 e sake of it..it’s so damn bloody pointless…long gone r true friends where u can trust yr life w them. Ppl r pretentious n their goal in life is to go s far s they possibly can n getting any1 out of their way.

Suddenly a nice quiet secluded beach is all I wanna b rite now…w no 1 in sight except young children n baby animals…they’re most innocent in tis stage..so pure, so peaceful, so beautiful…adults can nvr emulate them no matter hw hard they try…it’s beginning to form in my mind tt I MAY NEVER gonna hv kids, coz I’m not confident I can raise them up well enough to adapt 2 this world or to my standards… n I can’t control them once they grow up n fly out of the nest.

Having an emotional roller-coaster of late. Had seen these programs on tv over the wkend..Extreme Makeover-Home Edition n Three Wishes…it’s v emotional…I even shed tears during the show..it really makes u think whtr life is all abt making lotsa money n pursuing over the finer things in life, branded goods, posh restaurants, yearly trips overseas, bungalow blah blah…is it life all abt?? I feel saddened by all these tots n wish every1 could b much simpler, kind, caring n NOT EVIL…n not harbour ill intentions of getting sth they wan (not NEED) in expense of others…I really think I should evaluate my life seriously n intently to make sure every sec I hv is not wasted on some frivolous ways..i hope those reading this blog will make the same difference s well…I’m not forcing, not encouraging…it’s nvr too late to make a change to someone else’s life..a small change goes a long way..

If I can, I will go 2 e travel agency n buy a tix n fly 2 somewhere I can b myself n b in peace w myself, at least 4 a mth…warm sun-rays, pattering rain-drops, pristine lakes, laughter frm e soul…children smiles…all these we hv taken 4 granted…I hope I can do all these fast..i dun wanna die w regrets…it’s all these simple things tt will amt 2 greater things..

Living here n having a stressful rhythm in my heartbeat really makes me or someone else’s soul/spirit, stone cold. I’m sure God didn’t wan us 2 b lik tt..i’m sure he wanted us 2 find e way..but there r wayyyyyy too much distractions 2 even find the warmth of the light at the end of the tunnel…I’m getting tired..aimless..drained..lost my motivation n drive 2 move forward…there’s isn’t much 2 look forward to..my marriage’s in crumbles..at least I feel it is…mayb it’s e best time 2 pack my bags n move 2 Down Under n become a farmer…life’s much simpler there…u eat wat u grow..quiet life..raising a family there looks lik not a bad thing aft all…things r looking up at tis pt of time. Mayb there’s too many “I” in this life of mine…n this in post…if I take away e “I”, wil it become “U” or “Us”..i dun think I’ll ever knw…not in e time being…I wanna let e selfish me surface up now n make sure I get e best, NOT in the expense of others of coz..

Not sure whtr I can ever find my significant other..e true blue girl of my dreams…jus feel my wife isn’t e 1 2 b…but I owe her too much 2 “abdandon” her now...jus doesn’t sound fair..but then hw??? Neither tis nor tt…I’m at world’s end, like the new installment of Pirates of the Caribbean...dun think I’ll or can do nth abt it in the time being, s I knw it wil hurt her as much 2 myself. I wanna b fair 2 her s well..dun wan her 2 b w me if I knw I’m gonna let her go in e future..lik they say, a woman’s youth is golden. I must giv her time 2 find a new love n start her new life if I can’t giv her myself..i knw I’m in deep shit coz I’m struggling inside me all tis while..ever since my talk with Tracy last May..my r/s w my wife has nvr been e same…e trust is broken n can nvr be mended..e love is lost, but she still love me ever so dearly..i’m guilty of 1st deg murder of killin tis r/s n swallowin her heart, whole, w/o givin anything back. I need some enlightenment frm some great soul or sage..is he comin or do I hv 2 find him??? I can’t stand it anymore..i’m sooooo weak in matters of e heart..always wishy-washy over such things. I gotta b firm tis time..can’t let Irene suffer w me, if I can’t giv her wat she wants, Love.

I knw I’m not born 2 do great things..inventin new things, save e world, famous artistes…but I knw I’m special frm a v young age..creative, if u put it in a nice way…doin wat e others not doin n not following e norm, is wat they say..sensitivity is nvr a gd trait 2 hv in a guy until e late 90s n early 2000..till now, some still frown upon it…but some ladies lik it..more sensitive 2 their needs n wants..however, more women r becoming more masculine (in character) n e guys more feminine. Seems like e roles hv interchanged..but I say, it’s intertwined. It makes us more capable of handling diff things n ustanding ea other views better n b more compromising..but it’s nvr e way…haha..dun knw y..beats me..guys!! U gotta step up n buckle down 2 biz. Continue being a SNAG but step up e man factor, chromosome X, masculinity…yr balls r at stake!! I, myself is a SNAG…mayb tooooo much of it..tt’s y I’m doubting my masculinity..m I’m destined 2 b a female?? Hell NO!! coz I’m more interested in tits than having a stick up my ass!! Tt’s DEFINITE! Kekee.. :p

Gonna set my heart out 2 learn new things tis summer…wil need 2 go thru CCs or diff language schs 2 get e course I wan…primarily, learning Malay, Italian or Spanish…n cookin…I love learnin new things tt I LIKE..not forced…will take up competitive cyclin if I got e time n spare money. I’m crossing my fingers now, tt I can accomplish at least 2 of these tis yr…*crossin my fingers n toes realllll hard* I need 2 do new things 2 keep my life interesting…I can’t stay in a pl 4 too long..i’ll fidget n complain. So it will b gd if I can get these things done. J

Oh well..i think I’m been naggin n not doin anything..gotta go do sth now…play CM4!!!

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Kinda disappointing KL Trip..





back frm my trip in Sunway Lagoon..disappointing bcoz e theme park was lousy!! More 4 kids than adults lik us…e rides aren’t tt thrillin enough…I was expectin better than tt…e next trip should go Taiwan, e food n theme parks r much much better…me n Soon alrdy planning it liao…mayb ard Dec or in March, when e winter’s over..

however, e hotel’s rm fantastic!! So service s well…nvr been 2 such gorgeous rm b4…everything’s PERFECT in e hotel dept..other than tt, it’s jus disappointing..e food’s normal, sometimes cold n lukewarm…manage 2 shop abit..but 4 other ppl!! Hahah…anyway e things there aren’t cheap either…abt e same s spore…

now down w a sore throat…now downin lotsa water 2 prevent it frm exploding 2 e maximum effect..

gonna drink water n my apple now…hahaha.. :p

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Lost 2 ringgit...80cents!!!

jus found out i lost 2 ringgit when i sent irene back..dun knw where it went...must hv dropped when takin out stuff frm my pocket...sian....luckily it's only 80cents Spore money, if not i can't slp tonite...arrrggghhh...jus hate losin things...makes me feel irritated..

kinda hungry..made myself some hot cereal...been a longgggggggggggg time since i drink tis...think e last time must b durin sec sch days...might b even b in my Pri 6 days...haahha...anyway, it's a healthier alt compared 2 e ice-cream my folks bought earlier on...yummy...!! since my tummy's not so gd now, cereal seems lik e safest bet...

i'm full now...gonna wash up n hit e sack.. : ) back 2 work n preparin 4 e KL trip on fri...M'sia Bagus!! hope so............hahahahah

Dedicated to my Loveliest Gf!!

Had a lovely lunch n nightcap w 1 of my bestest n dearest friend…she’s e epitome of femininity!! Gorgeous, lovely, stunning, hottest of HOT!! E superlatives r simply endless…she’s Jo! My only gf tt is telepathic w me..hahaha…all e nonsense lah…kekek…anyway I was forced 2 write tis loh…aft she saw wat I’ll written in my previous 2 postings…hahahah..blah blah…ok ok, enough crap..always enjoy a session w her…be it lunch or jus coffee…we always hv e best of time chattin everything under e sun…getting nostalgia is jus part of e outing…sharing our views n comments over impending topics makes us laugh n make us think hard of our future, lives, n each other’s issues…so it’s fun!! Jo…..i wan moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!! Can’t stand it………….aaarrrrgggggghhhhhhhhh…!!

Gonna hv a bbq in e pipeline..n Ser’s in-charge!! she better make it a stunner!! Hmmm…lik I told Jo, I’m gonna showcase my skills s Jamie Oliver of spore…hahah…*lik real* it’s only b e only time I can marinate food w e herbs n other foodstuff I’ve seen in cookin shows…yummy!! Tentatively, it wil b 12 May…hope it comes thru man…some1 better tell her!!! *Jo, it’s YOU!! No need 2 look left n rite…pls inform her ya*

Labor Day’s later in e morn…but there’s nth 2 do…i hope can think of sth 2 do when I wkae up…ok!! I’m done here…Jo wil b waitin 4 yr postin ya…n make it FAST!!

p.s though u dun hv e body of Carol Cheong, I still love u e same!! n I mean it..Kekek.. ;)

Thursday, April 26, 2007

The TIGHTEST Ass I've Seen EVER..!!

i think my luck's been great lately!! keke...e scenario's e same agn...on e way back, alightin @ my stop, i saw tis Chinese lass w e TIGHTEST ASS EVER!!!!!! wanted 2 chase up 2 take a closer look, but my heels r blistered (caused by my new Pedro shoes)..so i couldn't...DAMN!! but tt view is unforgettable...nicely shaped, athletic body...n i think she didn't even wear anything down there!! coz i couldn't even c any G-string or thongs "marking"..but highly unlikely..inspired 2 work my ass too man..need tt perky butt 2 look sexy n hot 4 FIVB match...NEED AND MUST look GOOD @ e beach...coz all e babes n hunks wil b there...so i can't lose out too much...ahahahah...

tt's my FIND of the Day...ended e day well despite my bad flu...today's lunch was great..Ivan aka my hunky dory colleague invited me 2 lunch, together w 3 other colleagues...he got upgraded to EA2 n most porbably an increment...gd 4 him..!!! congrats bro!! but i'm also got e same upgrade!!! hahaah...he took 5.5yrs...n i took less than 2yrs...feel kinda pai seh...coz every1 took longer period, so i didn't tell any1 unless earlier on...n my increment's lik 20%!! highest i known in PIL...so i think my boss lik me..hahahaha...nonetheless, i'm resignin soon...so not much impact also...anyway, lunch's @ Secret Recipe w cakes...yummy!!! *gotta work-out harder man*

hope i gonna hv more such GREAT Finds tmr s well...kekekek...gettin naughty here...who CARES!! gonna hv dinner n med now...sleep @ 9pm tonite..................hopefully... :p