For weeks, the thoughts in my mind have been pouncing up and down like the Tiger, that took over the Ox in February. Somehow or rather, my confidence level had dipped to the lowest in recent times. I had no idea what triggered it, but it just happened. And I believe having a modest paycheck and the increasing in years on Earth, have a major part to play in it.
I even seeked divine advice on career changes and I was given the green light to stay put in insurance and not return back to shipping with my tail between the legs. I guess, all along I know the answer, but I just need “someone” to affirm that decision. I really felt more at ease after visiting the temple. She showed me the way and I really appreciate it. :)…and for all God’s grace, I asked about my love life as well. Hahahahah…I really don’t wanna die old alone, man!! Anyway, the Gods are shining on me for this request too. So, it’s not too bad and I should have some sort of a Good relationship in years to come. When?? I don’t know…but I know it will come, eventually… :p
Started the long weekend with a “Pre-Valentine’s” lunch with Nana. And well, it wasn’t formal, just lunch. Surprisingly, both bought chocolates for one another. :p I was really surprised by that gesture…hmmmm…I think I might have pondered too deep into that gift, but STILL, it was a nice feeling. :) I'm not sure whether she wants to go into a relationship or not, coz I couldn’t sense anything from her…there wasn’t any clear signals. No body language that gives me the “go-ahead”. So, I shall just bid for my time to come….or maybe move on to another target. Coz eventually, I know she’s not the one…she’s just there at the right place at the right time, but with the wrong person. I don’t want another merry-go-round and disrupt one another’s life. Anyway, I might still play by the ear….no hard feelings baby ;)
You can see from the way I write that, I’m really a freaking contradict. On one hand I wanted this, but on the other, I’m not. I such an asshole sometimes…!!!
I guess I wanted companionship. That’s all. But the girls that entered my life ain’t what I’m looking for. And it’s damn difficult to find the right one…or maybe, there isn’t the RIGHT ONE!! Haiz….isn’t being idealistic in love a romantic thing?? But in real life, the best just ain’t good enough, coz there’s always better ones that will come along and disrupt your life and make your mind go haywire!!!!!
Like what my friends said, I should lower my expectations. But I already lowered!!! Anymore lower, I can just get hitched with any girl I see within the next 30 seconds!! I would still like to think there’s someone outside, perfect for me. I just have to wait. Unlike in the movies, I can’t fast forward to reveal who she is, but I can wait for another 5 years, and that’s about it dude..By then, if Ms Right still isn’t in sight, I might just stay single…. ;)
It’s all about love, happiness & money in the last few weeks or so. My emotions fluctuate between cloud 9 and hell. It’s really unstable..I can only flirt so much, and at the end of the day, I still need someone to lean on and called her my greatest love.
Are you out there…….somewhere???
I even seeked divine advice on career changes and I was given the green light to stay put in insurance and not return back to shipping with my tail between the legs. I guess, all along I know the answer, but I just need “someone” to affirm that decision. I really felt more at ease after visiting the temple. She showed me the way and I really appreciate it. :)…and for all God’s grace, I asked about my love life as well. Hahahahah…I really don’t wanna die old alone, man!! Anyway, the Gods are shining on me for this request too. So, it’s not too bad and I should have some sort of a Good relationship in years to come. When?? I don’t know…but I know it will come, eventually… :p
Started the long weekend with a “Pre-Valentine’s” lunch with Nana. And well, it wasn’t formal, just lunch. Surprisingly, both bought chocolates for one another. :p I was really surprised by that gesture…hmmmm…I think I might have pondered too deep into that gift, but STILL, it was a nice feeling. :) I'm not sure whether she wants to go into a relationship or not, coz I couldn’t sense anything from her…there wasn’t any clear signals. No body language that gives me the “go-ahead”. So, I shall just bid for my time to come….or maybe move on to another target. Coz eventually, I know she’s not the one…she’s just there at the right place at the right time, but with the wrong person. I don’t want another merry-go-round and disrupt one another’s life. Anyway, I might still play by the ear….no hard feelings baby ;)
You can see from the way I write that, I’m really a freaking contradict. On one hand I wanted this, but on the other, I’m not. I such an asshole sometimes…!!!
I guess I wanted companionship. That’s all. But the girls that entered my life ain’t what I’m looking for. And it’s damn difficult to find the right one…or maybe, there isn’t the RIGHT ONE!! Haiz….isn’t being idealistic in love a romantic thing?? But in real life, the best just ain’t good enough, coz there’s always better ones that will come along and disrupt your life and make your mind go haywire!!!!!
Like what my friends said, I should lower my expectations. But I already lowered!!! Anymore lower, I can just get hitched with any girl I see within the next 30 seconds!! I would still like to think there’s someone outside, perfect for me. I just have to wait. Unlike in the movies, I can’t fast forward to reveal who she is, but I can wait for another 5 years, and that’s about it dude..By then, if Ms Right still isn’t in sight, I might just stay single…. ;)
It’s all about love, happiness & money in the last few weeks or so. My emotions fluctuate between cloud 9 and hell. It’s really unstable..I can only flirt so much, and at the end of the day, I still need someone to lean on and called her my greatest love.
Are you out there…….somewhere???
