Yesterday lunch, went for porridge and with 1 woman in line, I thought it would be fast. But in actual fact, she was tabao-ing 4 packets and eating 1 bowl as well. I was like, “WAH LAU!!” Packed so much for what!! Her colleagues damn bloody asshole…asked a pregnant woman to tabao and bring it back. IDIOT!! As she ordered the same porridge as me, I thought was mine and almost whisked it away, before the uncle told me it’s her. My face instantly turned pissed. In the end, I took longer than usual to finish my meal and lesser time for my kopi break.
And today, another idiotic thing happened. And you guessed it; it’s a woman too! Was queuing to top-up my ez-link card, and then this girl took a bloody long time to top-up. And when I thought she was done, she took out another one!! I feel like shouting “F*** YOU!!” at the top of my lungs, if I can. Really ah!, sometimes Singaporeans can be a big turn-off (including myself) and inconsiderate. Gone with the world-class city status and back to more civil education from the ground.
Bloody pissed!!
Friday, March 28, 2008
Weird but True : )
Was on the train when this struck me. I realized my closest friends resemble me to a certain extent. Example, Jo, Soon & Jia Chen..and even Irene. Nice bright eyes, tanned skin, sharp features and a quirky personality!! Kekek…but the physical aspects are really true. (Jo, hor!!) And this phenomenon spread to my “mate finding” capability as well. Subconsciously, I would look for girls with those features too. ; ) That’s why the scientists said that, we tend to attract people who we feel comfortable in and to our criteria. Without knowing, we have been doing that to all our friends and lovers.
Go figure out. Take a close look at all your friends and (ex)-lovers, and you’ll realize they somehow have a certain look that is similar across the board. No wonder they say couples have “couple face” as they have certain features that look alike in each other. :p
Quite cool or scary, if you see it other perspective. So girls, now you know my criteria and remember to keep a look-out for me ya ; )
Go figure out. Take a close look at all your friends and (ex)-lovers, and you’ll realize they somehow have a certain look that is similar across the board. No wonder they say couples have “couple face” as they have certain features that look alike in each other. :p
Quite cool or scary, if you see it other perspective. So girls, now you know my criteria and remember to keep a look-out for me ya ; )
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Singapore vs Lebanon
The way Singapore wasted chances in front of goal really pains me dearly. As a Lions' fan, topping the group stage as No.1 has been the utmost importance for the team. However, the woeful strike-goal conversion is a great concern.
Besides that, the defence is leaky and lack of confidence. One player to point out is, Precious. Though big and tall, he's practically a spectator in the game. Here are his weak points after seeing him in the National colours for several occasions.
1. Lack of pace & Zero anticipation
- with no pace, he should make up for it in his reading of the game. For most of the time, he's spaced out (blur) and letting attackers run him through. That would cost us the whole game (esp crucial ones) and give oppositions a boost of confidence if they score the equaliser.
2. Tall but Useless
- despite towering most of the squad, he does not utilise it to his advantage, and often losing easy headers in routine corner kicks.
3. No Confidence
- playing in so many international matches, he still lack confidence. Without an experienced defender like Aide, at his side, he's really lost. Often enough, out of position and letting his marker off unnecessarily. He shouldn't make it in the squad because of name, but on merit. On that, he doesn’t deserve his place. I can clearly say that, without Mustafic in the holding mid-field role, Precious would be exposed and unable to cope with the Lebanese players.
When he was awarded the Citizenship, it really puzzles me but I like to give him the chance to prove himself in more games before making my judgement. However, he failed me too many times and proved that he's not up to our standards.
Technically wise, only a handful is worth mentioning, i,e, Shi Jia Yi, Mustafic and Khairul Amri. Especially when Khairul is brought on. He’s a breath of fresh air! His pace, skills and reading of his marker are fantastic. He knows what to expect and how to counter them. That’s why he’s the hero in our previous international tournament!! These players are confident of what they are doing and have a vision. They know what to do before even asking for the ball. That's what makes a good football team. A team that can reach for international glory.
Among the back four, the shortest player on the pitch, Noh Rahman played a better game than his colleagues. He's all over the place; in mid-field, tracking back in defence effectively. His tenacity is what Singapore is lacking across the board. Players like him are hardworking and "never say die" attitude. Our boys should be mentally trained as well and cope with the rigours and pressure of international matches readily.
On the match itself, even if we are up 2-0, the way we played in front of goal is something that needs lots of work. Polishing the finishing touch is important if you want to set the tone of the game. Watching the boys wasting 3 chances, at least, it's a call for more training on this. Being Asian, we are smaller in built, therefore we should concentrate on technique and pace. With that improved, I'm sure we can challenge for Asian Games medals and hopefully, better our chances in the next World Cup (sooner than later).
Raddy is doing a great job and I hope he continues doing so, and the boys, show more confidence and take your chances every time.
Besides that, the defence is leaky and lack of confidence. One player to point out is, Precious. Though big and tall, he's practically a spectator in the game. Here are his weak points after seeing him in the National colours for several occasions.
1. Lack of pace & Zero anticipation
- with no pace, he should make up for it in his reading of the game. For most of the time, he's spaced out (blur) and letting attackers run him through. That would cost us the whole game (esp crucial ones) and give oppositions a boost of confidence if they score the equaliser.
2. Tall but Useless
- despite towering most of the squad, he does not utilise it to his advantage, and often losing easy headers in routine corner kicks.
3. No Confidence
- playing in so many international matches, he still lack confidence. Without an experienced defender like Aide, at his side, he's really lost. Often enough, out of position and letting his marker off unnecessarily. He shouldn't make it in the squad because of name, but on merit. On that, he doesn’t deserve his place. I can clearly say that, without Mustafic in the holding mid-field role, Precious would be exposed and unable to cope with the Lebanese players.
When he was awarded the Citizenship, it really puzzles me but I like to give him the chance to prove himself in more games before making my judgement. However, he failed me too many times and proved that he's not up to our standards.
Technically wise, only a handful is worth mentioning, i,e, Shi Jia Yi, Mustafic and Khairul Amri. Especially when Khairul is brought on. He’s a breath of fresh air! His pace, skills and reading of his marker are fantastic. He knows what to expect and how to counter them. That’s why he’s the hero in our previous international tournament!! These players are confident of what they are doing and have a vision. They know what to do before even asking for the ball. That's what makes a good football team. A team that can reach for international glory.
Among the back four, the shortest player on the pitch, Noh Rahman played a better game than his colleagues. He's all over the place; in mid-field, tracking back in defence effectively. His tenacity is what Singapore is lacking across the board. Players like him are hardworking and "never say die" attitude. Our boys should be mentally trained as well and cope with the rigours and pressure of international matches readily.
On the match itself, even if we are up 2-0, the way we played in front of goal is something that needs lots of work. Polishing the finishing touch is important if you want to set the tone of the game. Watching the boys wasting 3 chances, at least, it's a call for more training on this. Being Asian, we are smaller in built, therefore we should concentrate on technique and pace. With that improved, I'm sure we can challenge for Asian Games medals and hopefully, better our chances in the next World Cup (sooner than later).
Raddy is doing a great job and I hope he continues doing so, and the boys, show more confidence and take your chances every time.
Friday, March 21, 2008
A Boy, Not Yet A Man..
Met up with the girls (including a guy, Soon) tonite, and had the usual makan session. But that’s not the thing I wanna talk about. It’s Jo.
I don’t know why, but whenever I see her, I’ll poke fun at her or be extremely playful with my words (and being girly). Just feel that, the longer we didn’t meet, the harder I poke my jokes. I guess it’s my way of saying, “I miss you…”, “show some love over here”. The closer I am to the girl (the more I understand you and longer the time we spent, you will automatically promoted to the rank of “Girlfriend” :p), the more I’m at ease in her presence. In the 1st place, there isn’t many girls I can be comfortable with. Not even a handful. Maybe a couple (Jo’s always been the 1st, while Ser’s just promoted, but can anytime demote…not a firm candidate yet). Not easy to find a girlfriend who you can talk freely about sex, gays, tits, bikini waxing!!, amongst other stuff.
Under that playful façade, is a person who really wants your company and attention all the time. At least, most of the times :). Maybe I’m shy to show the emotional side in front of a crowd, but rather doing it in a subtle way. After all, I’m a guy (even though I’m a self-proclaimed girl, and ALWAYS WILL BE!! Kekek.. :p) and it’s just wired in me to show the masculinity, unknowingly.
So whenever I didn’t meet up with you girls for a long time, and I poke tons of jokes on you, means I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU LOTS k… :p The more, the better. Meaning, you’re someone in my life ; )
I don’t know why, but whenever I see her, I’ll poke fun at her or be extremely playful with my words (and being girly). Just feel that, the longer we didn’t meet, the harder I poke my jokes. I guess it’s my way of saying, “I miss you…”, “show some love over here”. The closer I am to the girl (the more I understand you and longer the time we spent, you will automatically promoted to the rank of “Girlfriend” :p), the more I’m at ease in her presence. In the 1st place, there isn’t many girls I can be comfortable with. Not even a handful. Maybe a couple (Jo’s always been the 1st, while Ser’s just promoted, but can anytime demote…not a firm candidate yet). Not easy to find a girlfriend who you can talk freely about sex, gays, tits, bikini waxing!!, amongst other stuff.
Under that playful façade, is a person who really wants your company and attention all the time. At least, most of the times :). Maybe I’m shy to show the emotional side in front of a crowd, but rather doing it in a subtle way. After all, I’m a guy (even though I’m a self-proclaimed girl, and ALWAYS WILL BE!! Kekek.. :p) and it’s just wired in me to show the masculinity, unknowingly.
So whenever I didn’t meet up with you girls for a long time, and I poke tons of jokes on you, means I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU LOTS k… :p The more, the better. Meaning, you’re someone in my life ; )
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
New Haircut!!
As promised, here's my pic...excuse the tardiness, just knock off from work..kekee :pEnjoy babes!! & don't complain!!! :p
**Damn, I look scrawny!! Need more food man...
Monday, March 10, 2008
2008: A year of sorrow/worries/gloom/saddness???
Seems like the world around me is crumbling. I may have started the domino effect, or I would like to think it that way. My friends’ relationship hasn’t been in the best of times. Justin just broke off with his girlfriend last Friday. Tracy’s man may be cheating behind her back. And my best bud, Soon, is having problems with Jess’ dad. Is this the year of failed relationships or are dark times beckoning our way? Everyone is facing stress from this issue. I feel the bad aura around my friends when they speak to me, but there’s nothing I can do. Just hope my presence will be comforting for them to ease a little of their worries/sorrow away.
Has been gloomy the past week. The weather, that is. I truly believe it reflect the mood of the people underneath him. Father Sun sets the rhythm for the day and that affects me a lot. Without it, I feel lost and nonchalant to my surroundings. I don’t really care what is happening and don’t want to know as well. Like I told many of my friends, I run on solar energy. Without it, I can’t operate properly. :)
Has been gloomy the past week. The weather, that is. I truly believe it reflect the mood of the people underneath him. Father Sun sets the rhythm for the day and that affects me a lot. Without it, I feel lost and nonchalant to my surroundings. I don’t really care what is happening and don’t want to know as well. Like I told many of my friends, I run on solar energy. Without it, I can’t operate properly. :)
Down Memory Lane...
Late Posting dated 9 Mar 08
Was flipping through memory lane and it evoked a sense of nostalgia and guilt. Time really flies. Gone were the years of a chubby baby and innocence. I saw how I grew up; the things, the people and the love that comes with it. My family has always been closely knitted and strong. I could cry while flipping the photos; but it didn’t flow.
Somehow, I’m very guilty of letting my folks down when I reflect on my present situation. They had brought me up from a tiny baby, to the present me. 25 years on, and I have yet to make them proud. The matrimony of Irene and myself may have been the proudest moment for them, but now, I’ve crushed their pretty picture. How am I gonna tell them? How can I face them from now on? A child whom they place high hopes on becoming someone useful. A child whom they devote their whole lives to protect, provide and love wholeheartedly. A child whom they want him to have happiness and love, when they have passed on. :( sob sob…have I been such a failure to fulfill such simple requests? So just why can’t I do it, the simple way?
I hope I can explain to them eventually and they can accept it..
Earlier on, met up with Justin, and his situation had been resolved. He broke up with his girlfriend. In fact, she initiated it. To me, I feel it’s a better move for the both of them. I can sense his anguish as he put in lots of effort and heart to this relationship, but it turned out negatively. It is exactly what Irene and I is facing. She’s in Justin’s shoes while I’m in Cindy’s (his girlfriend). Deep down, I know it will be better, so everyone can move on and seek greener pastures or at least, reflect on the past and gain insight on their relationship-managing skills and their own characters.
Relationships can keep a person going, but also can “kill” them off mentally. It should be fun, loving, interesting and embracing. Once doubts and distrust have entered into the relationship, it will cause a stir and jeopardize it, if not resolve tactfully and amicably. Simple? But it ain’t as easy as it looks. Some will have smoother ride than the others. However, for those who weathered the storm, the relationship will be stronger and worth the time/effort to make this last a lifetime.
Very interesting issues we have to tackle in our daily lives at this phase of our lives. I guess at every phase, there is something that is sticky and needs our utmost attention all the time. It used to be our studies. Now it’s relationship and work. In 10 years time, it will be family. But how many of us can boast that in time to come? Surely I don’t count myself as a strong candidate, though I wish I can have that worry in my mind like my close peers. :)
Was flipping through memory lane and it evoked a sense of nostalgia and guilt. Time really flies. Gone were the years of a chubby baby and innocence. I saw how I grew up; the things, the people and the love that comes with it. My family has always been closely knitted and strong. I could cry while flipping the photos; but it didn’t flow.
Somehow, I’m very guilty of letting my folks down when I reflect on my present situation. They had brought me up from a tiny baby, to the present me. 25 years on, and I have yet to make them proud. The matrimony of Irene and myself may have been the proudest moment for them, but now, I’ve crushed their pretty picture. How am I gonna tell them? How can I face them from now on? A child whom they place high hopes on becoming someone useful. A child whom they devote their whole lives to protect, provide and love wholeheartedly. A child whom they want him to have happiness and love, when they have passed on. :( sob sob…have I been such a failure to fulfill such simple requests? So just why can’t I do it, the simple way?
I hope I can explain to them eventually and they can accept it..
Earlier on, met up with Justin, and his situation had been resolved. He broke up with his girlfriend. In fact, she initiated it. To me, I feel it’s a better move for the both of them. I can sense his anguish as he put in lots of effort and heart to this relationship, but it turned out negatively. It is exactly what Irene and I is facing. She’s in Justin’s shoes while I’m in Cindy’s (his girlfriend). Deep down, I know it will be better, so everyone can move on and seek greener pastures or at least, reflect on the past and gain insight on their relationship-managing skills and their own characters.
Relationships can keep a person going, but also can “kill” them off mentally. It should be fun, loving, interesting and embracing. Once doubts and distrust have entered into the relationship, it will cause a stir and jeopardize it, if not resolve tactfully and amicably. Simple? But it ain’t as easy as it looks. Some will have smoother ride than the others. However, for those who weathered the storm, the relationship will be stronger and worth the time/effort to make this last a lifetime.
Very interesting issues we have to tackle in our daily lives at this phase of our lives. I guess at every phase, there is something that is sticky and needs our utmost attention all the time. It used to be our studies. Now it’s relationship and work. In 10 years time, it will be family. But how many of us can boast that in time to come? Surely I don’t count myself as a strong candidate, though I wish I can have that worry in my mind like my close peers. :)
Friday, March 07, 2008
Uneventful Shopping... :(
Subconsciously, I cut my hair according to Glenda Chong’s. Hahaha…realized that while I’m watching Channel News Asia. So funny… :p Maybe becoz I feel I resemble her a lot. The features, the sun-kissed tan. I reckon that’s the case :p Anyhow, looking good is still the main thing. Looking REAL good ; )
Went shopping for undies but very disappointed. Since November, there wasn’t any new designs under N2N brand. Shit loh!! So long liao, still no new stock meh??!! Actually damn pissed. Walked all the way from office to Chinatown Point, but it’s all time wasted. Sian…aaarrrgghhh!! Just feel like buying some new ones since I’d received an email saying they are having 30% storewide sale. But apparently, there’s nothing to my liking :( so sad…………
But what makes this day special is................it's my parent's 26th wedding anniversary!! Kudos to their never-ending love for each other and tying the knot on this special day 2 decades ago...So proud to be celebrating with/for them...wonder when's my turn will come.....??? Never?? :)
Anyway, Happy Anniversay dad & mum!! Enjoy this day and every other day to the fullest & stay healthy!! :)
*p.s my cam went flat, so have to charge it...so no pics babes... :p the next posting ya.
Went shopping for undies but very disappointed. Since November, there wasn’t any new designs under N2N brand. Shit loh!! So long liao, still no new stock meh??!! Actually damn pissed. Walked all the way from office to Chinatown Point, but it’s all time wasted. Sian…aaarrrgghhh!! Just feel like buying some new ones since I’d received an email saying they are having 30% storewide sale. But apparently, there’s nothing to my liking :( so sad…………
But what makes this day special is................it's my parent's 26th wedding anniversary!! Kudos to their never-ending love for each other and tying the knot on this special day 2 decades ago...So proud to be celebrating with/for them...wonder when's my turn will come.....??? Never?? :)
Anyway, Happy Anniversay dad & mum!! Enjoy this day and every other day to the fullest & stay healthy!! :)
*p.s my cam went flat, so have to charge it...so no pics babes... :p the next posting ya.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
My cute haircut
I LOVE my new hairstyle!!!!!!!! I’m crazy over it…kekek…took me a few months to come up with a nice one :) and I’m glad it took that long. Good things can’t be rushed. And everyone agreed!! Once I stepped into office today, I’d gotten compliments. Very good ones indeed. Kekek…'nice', 'handsome' are the common ones. So that made my day. Soooo happy…kekeek… :p I’m cuter than life!! *and I've gotten looks from BOTH girls AND guys..kekeke... :p* totally loving the moment!
It’s like a bop but a bit rougher on the ends. Kinda layered. For months my neck couldn’t see the sunlight, but now it can. Hahahha…had a nice slope at the back and gone were the long tresses of the past. Maybe I’ll post a pic in my next post, then you guys can have a look ; )
Nothing much to write. Just wanna share my joy with my girlfriends ;p Off to more shopping and showing-off!!
It’s like a bop but a bit rougher on the ends. Kinda layered. For months my neck couldn’t see the sunlight, but now it can. Hahahha…had a nice slope at the back and gone were the long tresses of the past. Maybe I’ll post a pic in my next post, then you guys can have a look ; )
Nothing much to write. Just wanna share my joy with my girlfriends ;p Off to more shopping and showing-off!!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Pedophile Alert!!
Saw this perverted guy on the train last night. He’s just hard-up for young flesh! A young girl, dressed in a low-cut top with her bra peeking out, boarded the train a station before him. So, from the time he came and sat in front of her (she was standing), his eyes were already fixated at her boobs. He didn’t just take a peek, he literally STARED for a few seconds!! WITH HER RIGHT IN FORNT OF HIM!! What audacity!! I don’t know whether the girl knows or not, but his actions were really creeping. Eyes bulging and almost popping out. He would take a glance every few minutes. Bloody ASSHOLE!! The sucky thing was, they both alighted at the same station (i.e. Tampines). And while she walked to the door, he stood up and had the gall to look down her top with no regards to the crowd besides him. HIS EYES MIGHT JUST AS WELL STICK THEM ON HER TITS!!! Bloody hell…a glance is ok, but that kind of action is criminal intent written all across his face. His face was damn creepy man. For a second, I thought he might molest her upon alighting from the train. I really was scared for her. Such a pedophile.
:( such bugger should not be let out of the house and hold under house arrest. Idiot!!
:( such bugger should not be let out of the house and hold under house arrest. Idiot!!
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
The Aftermath
Late Posting dated 4 Mar 08:
I’d said it. Done it. Everything was settled there and then. I can sense her agony on salvaging this relationship/marriage all by herself and still bear no fruit. I can understand the pain and anguish that comes with it. She cannot come to terms with it, but it’s a necessary evil. Somehow or rather, I’m single again and she, with an emotional baggage.
I’m disappointed things have to be done this way rather than the good old “face to face” talk. I can’t bear to see her sad face with “please don’t leave me alone” and “please don’t abandon me” look, and I’ll just crumble and give in to the situation again. I don’t want that to happen again and be firm this time round, hence the method of communication, i.e. via msn.
Her state of mind is my main worry. Until last night, I thought she would be at home, doing stuff. But in actually fact, she told me she was out roaming last night till 11+. I didn’t called her, knowing she might break down and I can’t hear her cries so late at night. For I myself, might break down as well. Anyway, we converse via sms and she made me think I’m very cruel for doing this to her. There’s nothing I can reply to her, but to swallow this down and let the world knows I’m the bad guy. There’s no better way now. Or simply, I have no more tricks up my sleeves! I’m at wit’s end. I’m no prophet at managing break-ups and relationships, so….don’t expect me to give subtle answers and 100% politically harmless replies and make you feel good. In fact, I’m wanna do the opposite. I want you to be sad, and lose hope in me…
She will be much better off without me. Honestly! From the time we got married, I can safely say, I have not been good to you. So, by leaving me, you are actually do good for my karma as well :_( I don’t want to treat you badly anymore!! So please leave me ok…It will be with deep sorrows when it eventually comes true. I want you to find a better man who can love you wholeheartedly and protect you your whole life. A man who can truly fulfill the words in the wedding vows.
The more I’m in a relationship, the more I feel I’m not capable of sustaining it with love, joy and commitment to my partner. I have always like to tie the knot at 23, 24, but I can’t. It’s still not my calling to build a family now. My mentality’s still not mature ENOUGH to hold my own, let alone another human being. Maybe I’m not created to fulfill that function. Maybe I’m just a passer-by and live out my predestined life here on Earth. Nothing big, nothing special…just a clay, molded to add to the headcount of this world. Or maybe, I’m just here to spread love and not enjoying it myself. It’s painful, but someone has to do the dirty job. But at least give me a bloody SIGN!!! God!! Chey….!
I don’t know what to do either. So don’t look to me for answers. I’m only trying out this method whether it’s workable, so pleaseeeeeeeeee keep to the confines of the agreement, i.e. no contact…even by sms/msn. But so far, you’ve have already breached all of them, so what’s the point now??? I know you’re hurting and don’t want to feel abandoned, but it’s only for a few days you’ll be feeling this way, so bear with it!! Aaaaarrrggghhh!!! Man! I think you still don’t know the rules and purpose. But I don’t blame you either. SO……just keep to yourself and stay that way till time’s up. Cya in June…if we still meet up……..
Tired…too much counter attacks since the break-up. Beginning to lose my self-image and inner soul. Just hoping this is the right thing to do, and I get it right the last time. No regrets and no good byes.
I’d said it. Done it. Everything was settled there and then. I can sense her agony on salvaging this relationship/marriage all by herself and still bear no fruit. I can understand the pain and anguish that comes with it. She cannot come to terms with it, but it’s a necessary evil. Somehow or rather, I’m single again and she, with an emotional baggage.
I’m disappointed things have to be done this way rather than the good old “face to face” talk. I can’t bear to see her sad face with “please don’t leave me alone” and “please don’t abandon me” look, and I’ll just crumble and give in to the situation again. I don’t want that to happen again and be firm this time round, hence the method of communication, i.e. via msn.
Her state of mind is my main worry. Until last night, I thought she would be at home, doing stuff. But in actually fact, she told me she was out roaming last night till 11+. I didn’t called her, knowing she might break down and I can’t hear her cries so late at night. For I myself, might break down as well. Anyway, we converse via sms and she made me think I’m very cruel for doing this to her. There’s nothing I can reply to her, but to swallow this down and let the world knows I’m the bad guy. There’s no better way now. Or simply, I have no more tricks up my sleeves! I’m at wit’s end. I’m no prophet at managing break-ups and relationships, so….don’t expect me to give subtle answers and 100% politically harmless replies and make you feel good. In fact, I’m wanna do the opposite. I want you to be sad, and lose hope in me…
She will be much better off without me. Honestly! From the time we got married, I can safely say, I have not been good to you. So, by leaving me, you are actually do good for my karma as well :_( I don’t want to treat you badly anymore!! So please leave me ok…It will be with deep sorrows when it eventually comes true. I want you to find a better man who can love you wholeheartedly and protect you your whole life. A man who can truly fulfill the words in the wedding vows.
The more I’m in a relationship, the more I feel I’m not capable of sustaining it with love, joy and commitment to my partner. I have always like to tie the knot at 23, 24, but I can’t. It’s still not my calling to build a family now. My mentality’s still not mature ENOUGH to hold my own, let alone another human being. Maybe I’m not created to fulfill that function. Maybe I’m just a passer-by and live out my predestined life here on Earth. Nothing big, nothing special…just a clay, molded to add to the headcount of this world. Or maybe, I’m just here to spread love and not enjoying it myself. It’s painful, but someone has to do the dirty job. But at least give me a bloody SIGN!!! God!! Chey….!
I don’t know what to do either. So don’t look to me for answers. I’m only trying out this method whether it’s workable, so pleaseeeeeeeeee keep to the confines of the agreement, i.e. no contact…even by sms/msn. But so far, you’ve have already breached all of them, so what’s the point now??? I know you’re hurting and don’t want to feel abandoned, but it’s only for a few days you’ll be feeling this way, so bear with it!! Aaaaarrrggghhh!!! Man! I think you still don’t know the rules and purpose. But I don’t blame you either. SO……just keep to yourself and stay that way till time’s up. Cya in June…if we still meet up……..
Tired…too much counter attacks since the break-up. Beginning to lose my self-image and inner soul. Just hoping this is the right thing to do, and I get it right the last time. No regrets and no good byes.
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