It’s crazy money!!! Still can’t believe that I spent 4.5K in just 3 months!! I got a shock of my life when I update my passbook. My jaws almost dropped man. I know I spent but didn’t realize it’s so much loh. Sibei sian now…really lost the zest for life. I can’t even put the smile back on my face…no job, I really lost the meaning for life. Now I fully understand why people say jobs gives them purpose in life and motivation to live. Jobs are damn important loh. Not only it gives you monetary independence, it also gives you SELF WORTH. That I reckon is more important than anything else in the world. I suddenly feel real small when I walk along the streets. How I hope I can work like them…at least they get to be stressed out for the right reasons. Haiz….me and my dumb brain.

Don’t know how long I can tahan this hiatus. It’s coming 3 months and not a single meaningful interview. Hopefully those I sent out last week will work out something for me. *need to go temple and pray liao…wish for luck man..*

Worst week of my life..........sob sob sob... :_(

When one is sick, the yearning for a hug is ever more intense. Had fallen ill for the past 2 days. Sore throat, flu and finally the biggy…FEVER!! It subsided and now only left with the running nose. Sian……hated to be sick. It’s like my world is in shambles. Jobless, sick, single…feel like a loser, a fallen crest. The thought of going into my birthday and X’mas being jobless is scary. My only wish is to get a job before the 24th, but I reckon it’s getting more and more impossible…………………………..

My mind runs wild every time I think of this. Everyday has been a bore and routine. And the gloomy weather ain’t helping much either. Everything is not going my way. What must I do to make things right??!!! Can someone show me a sign??!!! I follow my heart but it always turn out worst than expected. Lady luck may have already starting to shine on others and deserted me.. :(

I've Lost That Loving Feeling

Received bad news today. I’m not going back to my old company. I feel it’s a very political decision. It’s all about policy, policy. Actually one word from my AGM (aka son of the Chairman) can overwrite the HR GM (aka outsider). It’s a matter of whether he wants to do it or not. He’s a good guy but a big softie. He crumbled under pressure and gave in to a bloody HR executive! Anyway, the verdict is out and I accept it. I’m not ever gonna step into that office again..! I just feel bad about my colleague, Thomas and my manager, who both help outside their power to push this issue across. Really feel grateful to them and owe it to them. Now, my only concern is getting another job fast. The money ain’t gonna last me long. Most probably, I’ll have to stay home till I find work!! Hahahah…

Anyway, enough of the bad stuff and I don’t wanna talk about it so much. It’s not worth it…rekindle the retro part of me and heard this song from Top Gun, which is originally sang by The Righteous Brothers..enjoy my link:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sVrDQQIiweE&feature=related

Beautiful… :)

A week just crept past...so wasted...

The past few weeks had been great and fun. Rekindling old friendship and regaining my exercise regime back into the limelight have been the focus of late. Bcoz of the many foodie trips I had with Irene for the past weeks, had gained 2kgs!! That’s a lot loh…that’s why my swims and runs are more so important. In order to keep up with the glorious food, I just have to do it, i.e. to run more, to swim more. It’s also to train for the fab body for the Krabi trip in few weeks time. A good bod and golden tan is important to make the photos turn out great. hahaha…ohhh, I’m such a camwhore. Kekeke… :p Love me or hate me, girls.. ;)

My 1 month blading class had ended and thinking very hard whether to continue. My only issue is money. Haiz……if I’m working now, it’s not a problem for me. But it’s really fun loh…sian…I reckon in the end of the day, I might still sign up! :p

p.s. oh ya, I just bought my million bucks swimming trunks. It bled me $107!!! Aaarrgghh!!! Oh well, this is the price to pay for wanting to look more sexy. Hahhahah….kill me girls.. :p