Hi to all my dearest friends expecting my next posting.....well...here i am!!! kekek....it's great to be back aft sooooooooo long...it's becoz i've gotten a new comp!!...if not, this posting is not possible...all thx 2 COMEX and my dollar bills...hahha....
anyway, had a drastic Mon, almost couldn't make it 2 e clinic....had terrible stomach cramps...that turned out 2 be diahorrea...had a few doses of med, n feelin better abit...
was feeling tight mentally n physically of late...needing to rush 4 project (which is due next Mon, n nth is done yet!!! aaarrggghhh....), work (busy busy period now...rushing 4 time) n e obvious...HER...she's been giving me unnecessary pressure, mentally mostly....she almost wanted me all 2 herself.....it's diff on my part as i need 2 spilt myself btw sch, her n myself....time alone is impt 4 me now....it's e only time i can think clearly, besides in e shower...kekeke...anyhow, i tot things wil become better aft e ROM, but it didn't....she's gettin more possessive n un-understanding....
dun knw is it her or me not giving 100%....but i knw myself, i'm not happy now....somehow, need 2 please her from time to time....need 2 accompany her, n if she's not free, she "expects" me 2 b at home n not goin out....i mean, hw can 1 person b so unreasonable??!! i'm a Sagi, so freedom is my middle name...so i need 2 roam ard n not kept in a barn....i'm not myself anymore...i dun knw who i m anymore...it's scary u knw....i'm actu losing my sanity so 2 speak...work, sch, n her....really drainin my life-juices out of me by e pint!!
hw i wish i can b alone by myself 4 a few days...runnin off 2 a deserted island n really relax w no interruptions....my dream wil come true when she's goin out-station in early Nov 4 a wk or so....yippeee!!! u may think i sound bad, but i guess both of us really need a break from one another n think things thru...our priorities n other impt issues....hopefully she wil be more matured n thoughtful when she's back....tt's wat i 'hope'...it's wat i truly wanted...a wife who can truly support watever i'm doin n giving total commitment 2 my cause....4 now, i hv 2 bear w her until she gets "IT"...dun wanna argue so much....having a cold war now coz in e morn i told her i didn't wanna talk too long coz i'm really tired...n wil call her back later...lik tt she angry...wat e fuck man...she can initiate 2 end e call but i can't....wat e hell.....no offence, but girls are really fickle minded ppl....i think i'd had it w them....i think i wil not hv another intimate r/s with another girl if given e chance aft such an exp....all u guys out there...heed my advice...!!! it's true...dun be fooled by the boobs n asses...think w yr BIG head...
oh well...think i'll vented enough 4 a day...save some 4 tmr...kekeke.. :p
p.s Jo, faster come back k...dun stay in Aussie too long...u may lose yr accent...keke...
n kudos 2 Ser, HS, my beautiful Mei Mei (u knw who u r ;p ) n Soon...thx 4 being my friends 4 soooooo many beautiful n memorable yrs...hope more 2 come frm u guys...live life n live it well...!!! b yrself...dun b constrain by anyone but yrself....nite!!!
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