The past 2 weeks...The Enjoyable 2 weeks...

Life’s going strong for me. I’m like living the life that I thought I would like during my secondary school years. Carefree, happy with no worries. But I guess it’s different now that I’m at that age, whereby I’m suppose to support my parents and family. It’s tough and maybe I’m just putting on a brave front, and I’m damn good at doing that!! hahaha…

I couldn’t spend as before, but I know I’m happier. Have been more sociable of late; meeting my godsister, Agnes and going out with my not-so-close ex-colleagues. So maybe I’m changing, or evolving?? Changing for the better, of coz. I feel more at ease with myself, less conscious of my appearance, more inviting when meeting new people. You know what I mean? It’s like euphoria and it keeps building up. It’s way cool!!! :p To put the icing on the cake, I register for an insurance exam to let me be available for work in that industry. Is that out of this world or what!!??? In the past, I definitely will not do that, but given the situation I’m in now (and I love my job), I just give it a try. No harm done. Extra cert will do me good. Hahahaha…

Seeing my packed schedule, I’m feeling a sense of fulfillment and the hustle is doing me good. Lesser unnecessary thoughts in my mind and more useful actions. I reckon this will keep me going for a while, or until the festivities die down. Kekekeke…anyway, what the heck!!

Girlfriends vs Girlfriends

I keep attracting the wrong types of girls. I kept meeting girls who make great “girlfriends” but not girlfriend material. OH MY GOD!! I’m not itching to get myself back into a relationship, but I’m just wondering why. It’s fun to have more girlfriends around to hang out with and bitch about people, but it’s also stimulating to have girlfriend material lurking round the corner. The forces of our love ain’t blowing my way yet, and I’m not asking for it…at least not now. Anyway, just bumped my way into 2 girls’ “girlfriend list” in 2 weeks!! It’s nice to be in that list, but I’m might turn gay overtime!! Hahahah…if this carry on, I might just be. Kekekek… :p

My mojo’s still there but the bitchy side of me creeps out from time to time without me knowing, especially when I get hot on a topic. That side of me sure to surface! I love my girlfriends and it’s beginning to grow in size. Maybe that should be another resolution for 09. kekekeek… :p Being around girls is just more fun. You’ll have something special that you can’t get from hanging out with the blokes. I can’t explain it but it’s very comfy and fuzzy. Makes me all girly when I’m with them. :p

2009!!

It’s the 1st entry of the year and I wanna make it a BLAST!! Last 2 weeks had been crazy as hell. Festivities were all around the corner and there’s no escaping. Booze, good food, party dates were the main agenda for all. Good vibe were everywhere and spirits were lifted from this economic downturn. Though moments of despair catches on with me from time to time, I tried not to let it get to me…at least for that 2 weeks. The full blown recession hasn’t reached yet, but the gloom is already very clear. I think I gotta embrace it with the best of my capability and mental strength, in order to pull this through. Job postings are fewer and far between. Like what Soon said, maybe I should try to venture out of my industry and seek employment elsewhere. But I already did!!! Applied for a few government sector jobs, now awaiting for their calls. Well, I’ve already done my part, and now it’s God’s part to turn on his magic.

Enough said of the gloomy stuff, it’s getting to me as I write. Well, NYE was a HUGE success given the last minute arrangement we made at 6pm!! Hahahah…to give some incentive for the West side kids, we headed to Wala Wala, and we didn’t regret it. I reckon it’s even better than celebrating in town. The crowd would have stampeded us all over the place. The food was surprisingly great and cheap booze too. I’m beginning to love 1-for-1 all over again! Hahahha…and there’s MORE. We were given party hats, poppers and other stuff in a gift box while we were there. Isn’t that GREAT!!?? We saved on that as well…it was totally worth it!! Even before the night was over, I was already suggesting we make more trips down here in the future!!! The atmosphere was wild, the crowd was fanatic, and the staff was obliging (we took photos with them!!) too!!! What more can we ask for!!?? For half the price, and twice the fun, who wouldn’t want to visit Wala Wala again..WE WOULD!!!

Coz there’s so many pubs/clubs there days, that the heartland businesses got affected, which is good for us on occasions like these. There’s definitely a shorter queue and finding seats weren’t a problem. And we went down at 10.30pm!! So, it was great. Normally in the past, Wala Wala would be overflowing with people by then, but I guess most of them head down to Clarke Quay, St James and Dempsey for the celebration..well……….GOOD FOR US. The funny thing is, after the countdown, immediately I saw people leaving. SO FAST!!!?? That to me was a funny sight. At least stayed on for a drink or two ma…Anyway, the pub closes at 2am, so we left at 1 and headed to a prata shop to sober ourselves up. Kekekek…

We ain’t drunk but still we got high on the atmosphere. Everyone was in high spirits and we had games which forfeit was to take photos with fellow party revelers. Hahahah…it was FUN!!! We did something we wouldn’t do in the past and it was liberating in a sense. We did something new and I guess that’s what life is all about. Discovering new stuff, doing it and enjoying the process :).

The New Year started off pretty well and I’m hoping to build on it and eventually holding a job in the coming month or two. That’s my main resolution for 09. Get a job and buckle down to business. It’s been a while, since I experience some hectic in my life. Hahahah…I enjoy the hustle and bustle of work life. It makes me feel ALIVE and USEFUL. Now when friends asked what I’m doing now, I rather shy away then reveal full details. The self esteem is gone and I want to capture it back sooner rather than later. Lately, many things have opened up my perspective on life and how it should be run. I try to incorporate it into my own and be less skeptical of myself. Let it flow and deal with it when it comes. Life ain’t so bad when you look around you. And money isn’t everything but life experience is. It’s more valuable for the soul than money can do. I was watching rerun of this local drama, Sense of Home, and I’m inspired to just leave home and explore what the world can offer me. I know it sounds very irresponsible and drama, but isn’t what life is all about??!! I felt free inside me when I thought of that. even though I can’t have the monetary comfort, but I know I gain a lot more elsewhere. Very hippy thinking rite…hahahha…

Phew, what a freaking long entry!!! Not gonna say anymore. It can go on forever…Happy 2009!!

How can Xmas be without chocolate!!!

Another event well-done again. The 2nd potluck held at my place went on pretty smoothly. Though rain dampened the streets and destroy our initial plans of going to ECP, it didn’t dampened our hearts to hold a party! Everyone gathered and indeed we had fun eating and playing mahjong, Taboo and Bluff.. :)

We were so stuffed loh. Everything was bloody delicious especially the vegetarian popiah bought by Lao Ma. Crispy and hearty…well done man!! And not forgetting my fruit salad, I could do with a bigger serving bowl and a lettuce dryer (you put the lettuce into a dryer and spin the water out..way cool!! Saw it in Jamie Oliver’s cooking show).

We really were going for broke this Xmas. We actually planned for 2 parties. 1st half and 2nd half. It ain’t easy and almost couldn’t pull it off. Hell ya!!! We did and it was worth it. eventually we went bowling and spent the final hour @ Kallang Mac!! Kekekeek…well, it’s not the best of choice, but no one’s complaining. :p If the stupid bowling alley didn’t dim the lights, we could have better quality photos loh. Idiot!!!

After the clock struck 12, we were already in the midst of planning for NYE..One thing for sure is, we need more party poopers!!! Hahahah…each of us need to be “armed” with 2 cans, at least. Kekekek…

p.s. just realize this morning that, I didn’t eat any choco for Xmas!? It’s weird, so I popped in a couple of Cadbury’s this instant….hahahaha…funny rite. But I just feel that at a festive season, choco is a MUST!!

p.p.s was also very very happy to know the turnout was great. For the 1st time, we have double figures! Yippee!!! Kudos to our extended network. :) We really couldn’t do it without you guys…join us for NYE ya!!

Maggi Expert & Self-worth..

3 months hiatus has made me a Maggi expert. Hahahah…I know how much water to fill up the pot, the time management to make that perfect bowl of noodles. Cool!! :p Maybe I can take heart from my time at home, to learn a new skill. Kekekek…

My emotions ran high over the past days and it’s terrible!! There’s a couple of friends who were sweet to ask about my well-being. That’s very sweet and well-appreciated. :) Thank God I’ve friends like them…bless them ;) This job hunting is hard work and it’s taking a toil on my mental state. About to go into depression again and it’s gonna be difficult to get out of it…I’m sure of it.

The festive holidays ain’t doing any help but accelerate the bad feelings in me to go FULL POWER. I can’t spend and it’s a yucky feeling. I don’t want to have that again!! I need my self-worth back. That’s what I need for X’mas.

2009 Resolution

Was spring cleaning my room for the past 2 days and came across old photos and letters. It brought back fond memories of my younger years, the foolish things I did and also the fun stuff as well. I did come a long way to end up the way I am now (which can be better, of course!). That’s why the camwhoring now to preserve the present for the future to reflect on. Cool eh ;) Maybe it’s the confidence that got a bit on the high side as age catches on.

Maybe I should do my 2009 resolution early this year, coz I might not feel the urge to do it on 31st. 2008 has been a wretched year for me, in terms of sporting achievement and work-wise. So far, I only competed in 3 events and absent for the final 3. I think I should thanks rollerblading for my ankle injury that kept me off for those 3. Haiz….I thought 2008 would be the year I break the record for the number of events that I would compete in. And 2009 doesn’t look favorable as well, given my injury will be a long term lay-off. Couldn’t run is really a low for me. My shoes are raring to go, but I can’t. Sian….just hope to stay more healthy next year.

As for work-wise, my itchy backside just have to move when I was doing so well in PIL. Then came giant, Samsung, but lasted for only 3 miserable weeks. It just went downhill from there. I’m not sure I’m picking myself up, but I’m doing my best. It’s been a roller-coaster ride ever since 19th Sept. My emotions were at its lowest and shittest. At the turn of events, Irene came into the picture a few months back. We rekindled, but maintain an open relationship. We were much happier that way, i.e. no strings attached and fewer burdens on our shoulders. Sending out resumes wasn’t a problem, but getting a call was. Never did I sent so many and not get a call. It’s damn demoralizing. Backed by the recession (oh, what a GREAT timing!!) and axing of jobs like a forest fire, I’m not sure when will I get employed. Optimistically, it could be months…but years is what I’m most afraid of. Me and my itchy backside…shitty!! For once, I’m feeling scared for the longest time. Everyday passes by, seconds, hours, days, months, I’m feeling insecure about my future man. To maybe help things turn better, my birthday wish was to get a job before 2008 ends!! Realistically, it’s possible but I don’t think that wish will fulfill. If you’re talking about the $5.60/hour nett job as a P/T admin clerk as work, ya it is…but it’s only for a few months. And the pay is really SUCKY! I REALLY HOPE it’s a sign of good things. A permanent job is on its way…..I’m really praying hard for that. I’m not even fussy now. I’m even willing to take up weird jobs to get my bank a/c moving again. No wonder they degree holders are all over the streets…jobless!!

Maybe this is retribution for being greedy or not contented. But I’m not asking much. I just want a better life and doing so with my hard work. Is that wrong??

Or another analogy that I always think of; it’s the retribution for dumping Irene. Oh well, if that’s the case, I got nothing to say. I think it’s about time he shine some goodness into my life and let me off this time round. I reckon I’ve been punished quite badly liao….

Day 5 - Krabi...Back to SINGAPORE!!

The final day of this wholesome trip. We did relaxed a lot, with the hot spring and Thai massage (only 200baht for 1 hour!!) summing it up for the 5 days. Today, we headed for our ½ day tour of the mangrove forest and caves via canoe. It’s the other best activity that was installed for us. We learnt about the 1st man ever to live in Krabi or even Thailand, some 5,000 years ago. So, it was pretty cool to learn all these historial happenings from my hippy guide, Mel. He gave me the vibe of a environmentalist and naturalist. His long flowing hair, goatee and dressing totally gave it away…without a doubt. He even asked us to mediate during a part of the trip on our canoe! What a zen feeling that was!! He totally is in love with nature and I respect him for what he’s trying to impart these knowledge to people whom he viewed as Earth people, one people. Sounds very great rite…he is that ;) kudos to you, Mel…

Day 4 - Krabi

One of the better activities was rafting. The ele and ATV rides are nothing compared to this. The ATV was actually a ripe-off coz I was expecting a jungle trail instead I got a track. Super pissed when I saw it loh…any hot blooded male will feel the same way as me. It’s no fun man! Too restricted and we can’t ram the rpm..idiot people!! :<

Anyway, back to the rafting. It was a level 2/3 river and it’s perfect for beginners like us; not too choppy but still get the adrenaline rush. Our guides even splashed us with water with their paddles to keep us “high”. Hahahah…and we did it to other rafters as well…kekekeke…it was a splashing good time!!! We only wished it could be longer. I reckon there are longer courses elsewhere, but this time, that will do :).

Day 3 - Krabi

We planned our activities in such a way that we have recovery time from each strenuous package. So today, the tour was relaxation. We catered for hot spring, some waterfalls to soak in and visitation of the Tiger Cave Temple. The tour wasn’t fantastic but the guide, Jami, was a joker and it made it less boring. Only the hot spring was worth the ticket. The rest, we can do without.

Day 2 - Krabi

The official 1st full day of the trip started off with the Phi Phi Islands tour. We went island hopping and snorkeling. The snorkel was particularly disappointing, coz I was expecting more and it didn’t fulfill my expectations. Nonetheless, it was an experience. Have to go to other countries to snorkel liao…like Rendang, Bocaray, Lombok or even Maldives!! Hahaha…the list runs wild when the festive mood is just round the corner.

I even saw Andrea Foncesa at Maya Bay with her partner. Pretty lucky eh… ;) Well, that pretty summed up day 2. Coz the nite activities I rather not talk about it, as practically every nite we patronize the same Ao Nang Village…hunting down pad thai and Tom Yum Goong. The crazy fav of my people…don’t know what up with these 2 dishes…haiz…anyway, we had that for like 3 straight days..it’s crazy, but I’m not complaining. :p

Day 1 - Krabi

I was pretty apprehensive about the weather for the next 5 days after I read the weather forecast from FOUR different websites. So you know how I was feeling when I got there. The weather was cloudy and rain clouds were forming, so we didn’t get the best of starts. Later it did rained while we were negotiating franticly with the tour agent, Mona. Hahahah…it was funny coz we kept slashing prices until she’s scared. :p especially from me. She always gave me the “stare” whenever I say, “6 people only!” hahahah…coz that may lead to more cost cutting. Anyway, it was fun and we got on with the packages for whole 4 days.

We checked out Krabi town and sniff around the area with delight. Food and more food were the order of the day. Basically, there isn’t much shopping you can do there except eat. So we ate our way for the next 120 hours. Kekekek… :p

My BIG 26!!

This year’s birthday was good as ever. Had a surprise party @ Happy Daze Café on our soccer nite where my fav gf was there as well. Really happy that she came. Bloody hell, if she didn’t…kekekekek… :p Anyway, my birthday celebrations really stretched from 23rd all the way to 30th. Seems like I’d a mega party rite? Wrong! It’s just that many activities were linked up that whole week and I would like to think that they are doing it for my big 26!! Kekeke…it’s fun to think that way :). It definitely spills over to our Krabi trip, where we had tremendous fun and lots of camwhoring as well!!! Of coz!!! With me around, the cam never leaves my hand. Hahahah…

Oh ya, the shocking prezzie I received was cK undies!!! Oh my god, those people of mine are going for broke this year. Hahahah…they are a bit too big for me, but I’ll try to fill it up..kekke ;) *naughty, naughty*

Got a shirt from my sista and I end up exchanging it for another shirt, coz it just don’t fit. But I love her thought though :) kudos to her!! As well as receiving many well wishes from my friends, far and near, close and acquaintances. Thank you all for that…really made this year a special one. :) Indeed it was. At least the settings and “procedures” were different and it was refreshing.

Catch more of me in my next few posts on my Krabi trip ;)

It’s crazy money!!! Still can’t believe that I spent 4.5K in just 3 months!! I got a shock of my life when I update my passbook. My jaws almost dropped man. I know I spent but didn’t realize it’s so much loh. Sibei sian now…really lost the zest for life. I can’t even put the smile back on my face…no job, I really lost the meaning for life. Now I fully understand why people say jobs gives them purpose in life and motivation to live. Jobs are damn important loh. Not only it gives you monetary independence, it also gives you SELF WORTH. That I reckon is more important than anything else in the world. I suddenly feel real small when I walk along the streets. How I hope I can work like them…at least they get to be stressed out for the right reasons. Haiz….me and my dumb brain.

Don’t know how long I can tahan this hiatus. It’s coming 3 months and not a single meaningful interview. Hopefully those I sent out last week will work out something for me. *need to go temple and pray liao…wish for luck man..*

Worst week of my life..........sob sob sob... :_(

When one is sick, the yearning for a hug is ever more intense. Had fallen ill for the past 2 days. Sore throat, flu and finally the biggy…FEVER!! It subsided and now only left with the running nose. Sian……hated to be sick. It’s like my world is in shambles. Jobless, sick, single…feel like a loser, a fallen crest. The thought of going into my birthday and X’mas being jobless is scary. My only wish is to get a job before the 24th, but I reckon it’s getting more and more impossible…………………………..

My mind runs wild every time I think of this. Everyday has been a bore and routine. And the gloomy weather ain’t helping much either. Everything is not going my way. What must I do to make things right??!!! Can someone show me a sign??!!! I follow my heart but it always turn out worst than expected. Lady luck may have already starting to shine on others and deserted me.. :(

I've Lost That Loving Feeling

Received bad news today. I’m not going back to my old company. I feel it’s a very political decision. It’s all about policy, policy. Actually one word from my AGM (aka son of the Chairman) can overwrite the HR GM (aka outsider). It’s a matter of whether he wants to do it or not. He’s a good guy but a big softie. He crumbled under pressure and gave in to a bloody HR executive! Anyway, the verdict is out and I accept it. I’m not ever gonna step into that office again..! I just feel bad about my colleague, Thomas and my manager, who both help outside their power to push this issue across. Really feel grateful to them and owe it to them. Now, my only concern is getting another job fast. The money ain’t gonna last me long. Most probably, I’ll have to stay home till I find work!! Hahahah…

Anyway, enough of the bad stuff and I don’t wanna talk about it so much. It’s not worth it…rekindle the retro part of me and heard this song from Top Gun, which is originally sang by The Righteous Brothers..enjoy my link:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sVrDQQIiweE&feature=related

Beautiful… :)

A week just crept past...so wasted...

The past few weeks had been great and fun. Rekindling old friendship and regaining my exercise regime back into the limelight have been the focus of late. Bcoz of the many foodie trips I had with Irene for the past weeks, had gained 2kgs!! That’s a lot loh…that’s why my swims and runs are more so important. In order to keep up with the glorious food, I just have to do it, i.e. to run more, to swim more. It’s also to train for the fab body for the Krabi trip in few weeks time. A good bod and golden tan is important to make the photos turn out great. hahaha…ohhh, I’m such a camwhore. Kekeke… :p Love me or hate me, girls.. ;)

My 1 month blading class had ended and thinking very hard whether to continue. My only issue is money. Haiz……if I’m working now, it’s not a problem for me. But it’s really fun loh…sian…I reckon in the end of the day, I might still sign up! :p

p.s. oh ya, I just bought my million bucks swimming trunks. It bled me $107!!! Aaarrgghh!!! Oh well, this is the price to pay for wanting to look more sexy. Hahhahah….kill me girls.. :p

Week 44...

As usual, Susan’s skills are at its best. My brows turned out marvelous…as usual :p Neat, clean and nicely shaped. Looking clean and prim again, and ready to take over the streets again. Hahahah…

Finally went for a short distance swim and was pretty ok. Only did 2km, but already panting like crazy. I better start running soon and on a regular basis, before I finished flat at my 10K race in December.

My Jap class was fun but the homework is getting more and intense. Sibei sian loh…I love the conversation and in-class lessons, but the homework is what I dreaded most. Haiz……lost the motivation to carry on another term. Anyway, we’ll see…

The rest of the week is pretty boring and only looking forward to my blading class over the weekend. FUN TIME!!

MotoGP Genting Trip 17-19 Oct

Back from my KL trip and it was disappointing. Don’t get me wrong. The MotoGP was fantastic!!…it’s the city that was sucky. It’s expensive and outdated. It wasn’t as good as before. Partly bcoz I’ll been traveling and KL just doesn’t match up anymore. There is totally no fashion trend, lousy/expensive food and practically nothing to buy back!!! It’s took me 2 shopping venues before locating the humble sour plums. It’s miserable man, I tell you. You thought it’s a simple/convenient tidbit, but when you want to find it, you just unable to find it. I find damn stupid and funny that day loh… :p Besides that, I didn’t buy anything.

Ok ok, enough of complaints and back to MotoGP. The sound was deafening for the final MotoGP catergory. It was shiok!!! The seats were vibrating when they zoomed past. It’s exactly like F1. the smaller bike categories, i.e. 125cc & 250cc, were less noiser and bearable. But when it comes to MotoGP (800cc), I have to put on my ear plugs. Hahahaha….it’s a very powerful noise!!! I LOVE IT!! You can get high, just by listening to it..No joke!

I changed S$200 just to buy Vale (for those uninitiated, he's the MotoGP World Champion 2008!!!) merchandise, but it was disappointing. I couldn’t find the ones I want. I wanted to get a visor and it wasn’t on sale. Then the pit crew shirt doesn’t have M size. So, imagine Justin & my face…black and long…just like a kid loh. Idiot!!! When I came back and checked online, the visor is totally out-of-stock now. Hmmm…have to wait loh. Hopefully, can get my hands on it by X’mas J.

Oh well, there’s nothing much to write for my 3 days trip. YES, it’s that boring…

Oh ya, Genting was lousy loh. the rooms was really nice and the beds are comfy, but there isn’t any mini-bar, safe, hand towels & proper wardrobe!! Damn insufficient for me..How can the rooms be so nice but lack in amenities?? Anyway, it will be the last time I’m ever gonna step foot into M’sia!

p.s. wanted to post the raw sound of the 250cc but the stupid blogspot takes ages to upload...so you guys can't have the luxury to listen to it...SHIT!! Too bad loh...

Feeling the HEAT...No birthday gift this year???

With my birthday looming in 5 quick weeks, I’m wondering whether I’ll be able to celebrate in style or in shambles…by then, if I’m STILL jobless (crossing fingers) by end of October, my mood will most probably go downhill from there. Haiz…it will be the only year in my working life, that I’m jobless come my birthday. Really REALLY si bei sian…

I don’t know when this hiatus will end…feeling the pinch now, especially in this time of recession (YES!!! It’s here!! Wake up guys…!! :( ) No more fine dining (not even McDonald’s!), no more shopping (that’s the killer…hits my sore point.. :( ), no more outing that costs money. I guess I need to sanction what I can do and cannot do. Most importantly, weighing the costs, if involved any. Best if it’s free or someone is sponsoring me!!! Kekeke…

When can I resume my lifestyle again???????? I hope not too late…feeling very lethargic/restless/sian-ness/unglam. I’m screaming inside man…I WANT TO WORK!!! The boredom is killing me…my butt is gonna have piles if I continue to sit in front of the PC and facebook, day in day out…

HEEEELLLLLLPPPPPPP!!!!!

Sore ankle & an ASSHOLE HR Mgr

Weekends pretty good. The only downside is, my Achilles is sore now after 2 days of blading. I reckon must be my overzealous attitude on stunts. Hahahah…oh well, I got 3 more days to walk properly before leaving for Genting.

During mid-week, actually didn’t enjoy the best of it. I was tua by the stupid HR manager and didn’t receive her phone call for the final interview. And it comes to a point that I need to chase for it. Even so, the agency girl told me today that they are still interviewing more candidates and will revert by this week end. I was thinking, “What the FUCK??!!”, they are not hiring a manger. They freaking looking for a JUNIOR POSITION!!!!!! What’s there to search high and low for a miserable post. It’s plain dumb and cost inefficient. I guess this post is not urgent and they can afford to play with the time. DAMN!!! I FUCKING NEED A JOB MAN!!! If I get another offer, I would fucking accept it straight away, just to spite them….MOTHER FUCKERS!!! They don’t know what they are missing…ASSHOLES!!

Back to icing my sore ankle & wrist…………….