Having a Miser as boss...Chey!!

My boss really is a miser, with a capital M!! My China supplier came over for meeting last Friday and as usual, we went for lunch. It wasn’t those cheapo restaurants. It’s Lei Gardens @ Chijmes. We went there a couple of times and we KNOW it’s grand and tough on the wallet. My point is, at our home ground, my boss didn’t even offer to pay loh. In fact, my supplier alllllllllllll the way from Shanghai, paid for the meal. Should set him back around $600-700, at least. WAH LAU!!!!! For once, I feel very disgraced being the subordinate of hers. People from overseas, paid for our meal HERE. AT OUR SOIL. Such disgrace. Such a loser. ‘coz at Shanghai, my supplier treated us very well, so I suppose it’s only natural for us to return the kindness. But it wasn’t meant to be.

After lunch, I went round to vent my disagreement. Telling my colleagues and friends, how can have such a boss. No wonder no one likes her in the company. No style, no say.

Aaaaaarrrrrggggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ather this incident, it further cements my/our decision to leave the company, especially the dept!!! Chey!!!!

Beauty is REALLY Skin Deep.

I guess beauty is really skin deep. As I was prepping my skin for tonite’s needful rest, it just struck me that no matter how much cosmetic products I slap onto my face, it can ONLY do SO MUCH. Unless you’re ultra-rich and have wads of cash to wave around, it’s rather impossible for mere mortals to embark on extensive and invasive beauty treatments.

The acne scars can only be totally removed by laser treatment. The foolish, including me, believed that by applying religiously day and nite, the scars would lighten and eventually, fade away. Hahaha…what foolish thought I’d been having since I was 12. It only came to me until now. Until 15 minutes ago. I believe in grooming myself for MYSELF and for the people I love. I believe it makes me feel good, and the girls feel good, looking at a cute guy as well. Kekek… :p it’s true what! But jokes aside, it’s the confidence that a person elude from his/her inner-self that makes the person sexy/sassy/radiant. It’s the inner beauty that REALLY helps make other features stand out and dazzle the world he/she lives in. That’s why some “ugly” celebrities can have such long showbiz life! It’s their confidence!! If you have that, you can do anything, conquer anything! Kudos to them.

Brow trimming, nasal trimming, haircuts, waxing, bikini waxing, teeth whitening and many other treatments are good, but if it goes beyond that and you keep seeking more to satisfy your vanity, then I feel it’s going over the board. Not bcoz I do them, but bcoz it’s NEVER ENDING!! You can never be the perfect being. God is, not us. Sooooooooo, there’s no point in pursuing something that is not achievable and be contented with what we have or can have. That’s what life should be. Pursue happiness but always question when it will be enough. Only your true self will know the answer. And only when you know it, THEN will you come to terms with it and make peace with everything and everyone.

Cheers mates!!

Bags of the Season!!!

1. Milano Duffle @ US$299

2. Venezia Duffle @ US$299

3. Casiana Toe @ US$399

All these bags are from Italian brand Floto. Based in California but Italian craftmanship. Where can you get such workmanship in this time of mass-produced generation. Aaaahhhhhh....it's oozing sex appeal!!! Totally a MUST BUY this year man!! Definitely gonna think about getting one of them after my May bonus...kekekek... :p

Help me decide girls....I'm spolit for choice!!! But it's a dilemma that I can live with...kekekek...

The Real Deal

Self reflection here. Me, me and me. Was on the train and reflected on my life. Finally I can put words into my character and behavior towards my loved ones and friends. It’s done throughout my life but just don’t know how to word it properly. Now it’s the time :)

All along I thought the reason why I tell my friends problems is bcoz I’m comfortable with them and able to seek comfort from it. However, the real reason is actually bcoz I know by telling them, they may/may not do anything. They are just there to listen and offer typical advice. From there I can tell who my real friends are and who ain’t. But when that applied to my loved ones (incl. girlfriend/wife), I withhold bcoz I know they WILL DO SOMETHING! Duh..!! I don’t know why, but maybe I just want someone to listen to me, whining and stuff. ‘coz deep down, I already know what to do. A listening ear will do.

The less my loved ones know my problems, the lesser they get worried about me. That’s how I think. It never crosses my mind that they should be the ones who are there for me, through thick and thin. But my intention is always clear; I don’t want them to worry for me. I just want them to be happy and not add my problems to their burden.

You can say I’m crazy or chauvinistic, but I rather it stay this way for as long as possible. That’s why Irene always says I’m more willing to open up to my friends instead of her. Now, here’s the reason, but she(they) doesn’t need to know. Unless I can find a gal who can break this stigma, I’m not gonna remarry.

That’s the real deal.

Lousy Increment 2008

Just received my increment letter yesterday. A measly 10% increase. HUMBUG!! Lousy man!!! Okok..I know I know…don’t compare, but it’s really not fair! Even remember telling Justin, I’ll EVEN consider if they give me $500 raise. Now, it’s not even close. Pissed and disappointed at how the company treats their employees. Unfairly, I tell you. Different departments tend to get more than the rest. Maybe our department is always viewed as the cost centre, they can’t see us saving the money for the company. While other revenue generating departments are more obvious, they are deemed as “working hard” more than the rest. This notion is a century old, but it’s still actively practiced here, especially in our local context. (US companies are more impartial and performance based, hence fairer.)

Now, my 2 colleagues and myself have made up our mind (firmer now) that we will quit in after May bonus. It’s job-hunting time again!! Intensive hunt is on now!!

p.s. I even type my resignation letter in my office after reading the letter. What irony!! Hahaahh…who cares!!

He dropped THE Bomb!

Phewwww….what a day! Boss’s not around and it’s a breeze. ;) Work’s slow and steady, but actually, there’s nothing to much either!! Kekek…Anyway, let’s get on with it…..

Jerry, my new colleague, dropped a bomb on me during our kopi session. When the topic touched on “further studies”, he paused a second before blurted out that, he actually enrolled himself for FULL-TIME studies and the semester starts in Sept, (IF he’s accepted) which he will know only in end May. Then we probed further (me, Justin & Kelvin). He said, since it’s not known whether he would be accepted, so he might as well get a job. But he did said he wanted a temp, but no luck. Then this opportunity arises and he grabbed it. “Where got such thing wan?!!”…“Where can you get the best of both worlds!” You can only choose one, my friend!!

“FUCK YOU, YOU JACKASS!!!”, was actually screaming in my head.

I think Justin share the same sentiments as me. Wah lau!! That is totally not professional man!! You’re in the real world, boy. You have to be responsible for your actions and bear the consequences. You will be definitely be CONDEMNED in the shipping industry. No one will employ you bcoz of what you did here in PIL. Bad words travel fast and wide. So beware & be very prepared. That’s my advice.

I told him to at least have the courtesy to tell my boss after knowing his place is confirmed. But I know it’s difficult and surely, get a lashing from her & HR. ‘coz during the interview, he didn’t mentioned he’s going to be doing his tertiary education sooooooo soon. I reckon if he tells my boss, she might just terminate his services immediately. She wasted so much time looking for the perfect candidate, then he turned out this way. Took her bloody 4 months (she told us the new guy/gal is coming in Jan, and it’s Apr now.). Almost didn’t want to teach him anything after lunch…just show him some data entry in the end. Anyway, I’m just waiting for the “good show” to come on. LET THE SHOW BEGIN!!!! :p

Apparently, once I told people I’m going for piles surgery, many of them came out of the closet. Didn’t know it’s such a common ailment. My friends have it. My colleague had it. So it’s pretty normal, I guess. But the thing is, most of them didn’t have the operation. So I’m contemplating whether to go or not. Hmmmm…will ask my doc for a 2nd option though. Anyway, I hope whatever it is, I’m ok :)

Was watching Fashion Ave earlier on and I’m always turned on by it. ‘coz it made me wanna shop immediately!!! It’s killing me man! This Jodie Kidd (the hostess in the show and happened to be a model..not very pretty though…kekeke :p) is always showing the great places to shop in the world, but the prices are always sky-rocket. Anyway, that’s not the point. The image of nice weather, shopping streets in Europe…oh my God!! Do I need to say anymore??!! Make me feel like packing up my bags and go to Europe rite away. Hahahah…or just Orchard?! :p Aaarrrggghhh!!!

Surgery...Medical & Cosmetic

Here’s the look babes!! Eat your heart out! Kekeke…

On leave today and went for my brow-trimming session. Once again, Susan (the boss) didn’t disappoint me. She conjured some magic and I came out looking FABULOUS!!! It’s better than the last time. Damn nice man!!! And her service is forever 1st class. Though my session costs $5, she would still treat you as VIP. That is what I call quality service from the heart. :) I even advertise for her too! I asked my MSN friends to patronize her as well… :p

But it's rather painful on the 2nd brow, and as usual tears rolled...kekeke...it's PAINFUL!!! Much more than the 1st time I went. So I made up my mind to come every 3-4 weeks to prevent such torture again. Hahahah...lesser to pluck is always better! ;) A minute longer and I would request time-out man! No joke!! My pain tolerance is low for such beauty regimes..I can fracture my hand and still tahan the whole day before seeing the doc, but this,...NO WAY in Hell. :p

Hope my piles surgery does not hamper my training regime. I can only bank on recovering within 3 weeks and that will leave me with 2 weeks of intensive training. Crossing my fingers, no complications and excessive bleeding. God!! Now it’s the time to show your prowess….*show some love big man...*

Sad...Confused...Tears.............. :(

Listening to Jay Chou’s music, 不能说的秘密 (I think it’s the direct translation :p) makes me looks back to my past actions. Anything I would do differently? What if I were more friendly and out-going, will I have more friends now? The lack of companionship has struck me hard while taking the train home.

If I take away my close friends, I’m practically friend-less. No friends I can relate matters with. No one to share my thoughts and companionship. Maybe in the past, passers-by see me as stuck-up or icy, and keep a distance from me. Potential friends or even mates, just stay away for this reason. I only have myself to blame. What I used to think, doesn’t works 5-10 years down the road, i.e. I don’t need friends that I don’t think I’ll call/email/sms them. But now, I really wish I’d done things differently. Maybe, just by opening by a bit will allow me to have a handful more friends? I reckon that’s true. Now, I’m just lonely. With divorce now imminent, loneliness is the only companion I have. 24/7, 365 days. I’m prepared for this day. I was in this shoes before, so I guess I’ll survive. :)

Just can’t believe I have to live out my remaining youth, friendless and mateless. Just doesn’t make sense. I’m not-bad looking, ok personality and rather easy-going. So why can’t I find any MORE friends? So difficult meh? Where have all the people went???

Commitment is a tough word (be it in a friendship or romantic relationship). Effort must be seen and felt to make all relationship to click and last. Why can’t I make that commitment? I think the time’s not right now. It’s not right for me to tie the knot now. It’s just not right…I should clearly let nature takes its course. Marriage is definitely is not on the cards now. It’s not my calling. I’m just forcing it. It’s making me miserable every, single day. I’m sure it’s making her feel likewise. I’m so confused in my mind right now, that I wished I could turn back time!! :(

Sad songs=sad emotions=tears? I believe..’coz I’m in that state right now…………………..

**how i yearn for a hug....an ever-lasting hug

Singapore Girls SUCKS!!

Am I not attractive enough? Why the girls in facebook don’t give 2 hoots about me?! Send so many flirts, only 1-2 replied. Bloody hell!!! To hell with Singapore girls man!! The Chinese say, “Hang up and sell”. HUMBUG!!! My decision to hook up with foreign babes has never wrong!! It further cements my decision to venture out and not look back…

It’s called flirtable for a reason. Even the less pretty ones also never replied me. Wah lau!! I really got nothing to say man. Either they don’t like what they saw, or they feel threatened by my good looks. Hahahah….anyway just fuck it. Can’t be bothered with matters of the heart now. It’s such a silly game in life. There’s much more better things to do.

What is Normality?

What is normality? The norm that is accepted by the majority of your community rite? Or is it something that the majority perceived as being “normal” and “safe”?

Saw this documentary, Taboo last night and this guy (who has transformed his body into a lizard form, with sharp fangs, forked tongue and green skin!!) said this and got me thinking. People like him are not doing to stand out in the crowd. They are just expressing their inner-most desires, wants, likes, feelings, and what have you?! They are fully aware of the weird stares/comments that they will get, but still go ahead with it. It’s their passion and wanting to change in order to live out their present shell. For example, transgender, it takes lots of courage to come out of their shell and bring that inner person out in the open and be subjected to scrutiny and disapproval. However, once that is done, they feel free and liberated of sorts. They feel they can face the world with their real self and brimming with confidence. Nothing gonna bring them down. That’s their thought. But the most important step is, getting out of the routine and reflecting on their true being. Is this what you want people to see you as? Or can you take the criticism that comes along with it? It takes guts but there are people out there willing to take that risk, just for a chance to be liberated. I feel I’m becoming one of them. Often shunned, but also often envied. Who can say, they are fully comfortable in their own skin?? I doubt all. There are always some imperfections and flaws that people want to change. A very good analogy is, having your hobby as your job. Not many people can relate to that. A very good example is EPL players. The super-rich footballers have always been the envy of soccer enthusiasts. The people on the ground can only see the dollar signs but never close to touching it. They have to slog all day in the office, just to bring back the paltry salary at the end of the month. Enough to get 3 square meals, but never enough for a posh outing in that special occasion. That’s never the problem for those rich players. They spend like there’s no tomorrow and STILL have enough to spill over for Ferraris and Hummers. Haiz…the dreaded rat race of the 21st century. What to do?! Accept it and be contented…be BLOODY, VERY contented!! :) kekeke…

Back to normality. I guessed with each day, I’m getting more and more in-sync with my inner calling of girliness. Maybe some called it metrosexual or SNAG. But I feel a girl in me calling to release her. And I do confess that, I only bring her out in the presence of close friends. Very, very close friends. Like many of us, I dare not show the true colors, as might faced with the rejection and fear that I come along with me. Conservative folks might think we’re gays and shun us, or treat us differently (complete with the “eye-ball rolling” effect). If I were to come out completely, I might have to have a 5hr session @ Strip to wax off all the hair at my hands, legs and “you know where” regions! Hahahah…anyway, that’s not the point, even though it’s a painful thought :p Ok, there’s no denying that there’s a little someone inside all of us wanting to come out and make a point. But can we do it freely without getting punched/kicked/slapped/shunned? Is our Asian society ready for that? Even the US and Europe are not fully embracing the minority. They are still casting them aside to the borders, as if they don’t belong to the mainstream community. It’s ugly, but it’s true. Inequality has been in our lives since the birth of time, and will continue to do its job unless someone stand out and make a point. A very strong point, that we belong to the same species. We should stand by one another no matter. That should what 2 million years of evolution means. To unite the people and stay as one. Not fighting one another over mindless issues. Save the Earth, Save Us. That’s the motto we should carry for the next 100-200 years, in order to save ourselves, the floral and fauna. We should take the blame for our vast development on this planet and, should rightly take charge to revert back to its original state (highly impossible, but at least make drastic improvements) and make peace with your neighbors.

Do you dare to come to terms with your true identity? Do you have the balls? The thing at the end of the rainbow is Liberation. Is it a fair trade? You decide.

p.s. off to brow-trimming, Brazilian waxing and make-up shopping!! Kekeek… :p